I Write Tragedies Not Sins

The end of Africa journey

2011-03-08T16:55:00.005+08:00

Today, I’m a proud daddy’s little girl who can happily claimed she has successfully completed her 6.5 months Africa life. Despite the tough pre-mid life crisis, stinky environment, silty country and more and more work stresses, today I can finally concluded that the 6.5 months experience was priceless. The journey to an African country was never an easy one. I have to quickly adapt to the change in environment, change in culture, change in work ethics, change in communication skills, and most importantly was change in mindset. Without the later, nobody can ever survive in any country.

Africa is totally different than any other countries that I’ve been to. Not that I’ve been to a lot of places, but with my limited travelling experience, I still think there are a lot of things that you should expect if you ever went to this country. Based on my one and only African country experience (soon to be a second one, duh!), one should expect the following whenever you book your ticket to Africa.

Expect lots of diarrhea, so be very careful when it comes to food. Don’t get too excited with their local food and never ever drink their tap water. In Mauritania and I believe in many other places too, they have big issues with water supply. In Mauritania for instance, has no drainage system at all and limited sources of water. People value water more than anything else, and to be able to get a proper shower in the morning and evening would probably be in most of the local peoples’ wish list. No I’m not kidding.

Learn their language. It’s not necessarily important to be fluent in whatever language they speak, but enough to grab few key words to get you going around. In Mauritania, they speak mainly French and Arabic and I don’t know any of both. I learnt few French words there and pretty much can get me survived in the city. But French is quite difficult I would say as they have separate lingo for male and female and many other things that I don’t even know how to describe! But hey, I enjoyed speaking French. Bonjour!

Expect the worst in their behaviors. No, don’t misinterpret this sentence. If you came from a hip metropolitan city where you think people are very much civilized (except for mat rempits?), then you have to quickly change that perception. It’s always good to have ZERO expectation wherever you go so that you won’t end up disappointing yourself.

Do not bring your favorite expensive clothes. Not sure of other African country, but Mauritania is a country of sand. I believe it’s just the same in other parts of the continent. I had my brand new shoes sand blasted after just 2 weeks of living there. If you were ever to be deployed to this type of country, bring a cheap shoes and clothes. As they also have problems with water supply, you may want to consider bringing dark color clothes.

Be very patient especially when uttering any comment as you might offend the locals. They have their own body smell, whether it stinks or not depends on how frequent they take their bath. So be very patient, try your best not to act offensively and learn to cope and hold your breath.

If you have international driving license, don’t bother using it. Not sure of other parts of the continent but Mauritania is a dangerous place for me to drive. They follow French rules, left hand side driver and they have the worst traffic system I’ve ever seen. They are developing and just had their traffic lights installed. Give it few years, and I think they are going to be okay.

Their night club was pretty much happening and don’t be surprised to see fully covered female end up having very minor clothes on her body when she entered the building. AHA!

I enjoyed myself there and learnt their culture. It’s disappointing as I didn’t manage to explore the whole city, didn’t go to the dunes or even ride a camel or donkey!! Better luck and more time in the next project!

More Africa project and I’m pretty much prepared for it. Bring it on bosses! :P

*cheers*

Among the best moment I had on the rig.. miss you grandpa!!

Where Life Took Me

2011-01-20T04:03:00.003+08:00

I feel blessed to be on this rig now when all this not-so-nice episodes knocking hard on me. Somebody said it’s not shit, it’s another chapter for my life book and there are some good memories in it. I can’t seem to disagree with this statement. Though it’s considered as the toughest challenge for me so far, but it also carried the best wonderful memories with it. I’ll take the beautiful memories and leave the bitter part behind.

I didn’t walk down 2010 memory lane on this blog. 2010 was a year of everything. I had the best experience in my life as well as the hardest pain too. Sounds balanced isn’t it? Had few wakeup calls and brought me back to this path, wiser.

I’ve always been so stubborn and it has been running in my blood since I was born. But with all the unfortunate events, I learnt to step back when I need to and learnt to listen even though I do not agree with what I’ve to listen to. I hope it stays in me for the rest of my life as I do not wish to go back to the dark side of me.

I could say 2010 was the “moving” year. After serving Petroleum Management Unit for 4 years, I decided to take one step further and joined the operator. And I took a big jump to be in deep water, instead of shallow water with almost zero knowledge. I started fresh, as new as fresh graduates. I have to say being in the management for 4 years really helped me a lot. The vast difference between me and colleagues made bosses gave me the responsibility to handle management stuff.

I was given a huge opportunity to travel across the country for a couple of time. And I’ve placed my footprints in few other countries that I’ve been dying to visit. And it was all paid for! *with huge seat too!* Nothing more that I can say except thank you God for creating this path for me! My career has been treating me good since the beginning. Not that I’m bragging about it, but I’m really thankful and grateful for that. I know I’ve not done my very best to be in this seat today but I’ll try to improve it from now on.

I’ve pinned few European countries & UK and I’ve always love Europe. The feeling of being in these countries can never be described in words, be it when it’s warm or cold. But yeah I hate cold weather! And the major achievement in my personal shopping history was when I shopped like a mad woman during summer sale in London. Bliss! Besides shopping experience, I’ve seen so many beautiful sceneries that just made me stop thinking of everything else. Deep inside me, I wish to live in that kind of country one day, where I can walk down the road without feeling insecure, enjoy the sun and the breeze, be romantic all day long with my loved ones. *one day hunn, dalam erti kata lain, gua nak kawin mat saleh okey? haha* But yeah, I also had to experience being stranded in London for almost a week when the volcano erupted and disrupted the whole Europe airspace. And it was both a freaky and fun experience!

After so many business trips a.k.a. free shopping trips, I was finally deployed to work outside of Malaysia. First time ever for me to be away from home for more than 2 weeks! And I survived to be in Africa for almost 4 months now with another 2 months to go *hopefully*. A very valuable experience, for both career and life. There’s always a first time for everything and this is the very first time for me for so many things. First time to work outside of Malaysia. First time to work on the rig for deepwater operations. First time to be in Africa. First time for every single thing! And again, I survived and enjoying every moment of it.

Being on this rig is just wonderful. Previously I did work with few expats and I always enjoyed working around them. But the rig in Malaysia will always have another Malaysians onboard so you will never feel like missing home or anything like that. Here, I have to deal with my ever challenging work load & expectation and also great deal with emotion. I became very close with almost everybody on this rig. I noticed its always enjoying being out here on the rig rather than working in the office and sucking up to all the politics.

I meet a lot of people from other places, where we always change views on everything. We talk about our life, country, religion, work wise and everything you can think of. It’s an amazing experience and undoubtedly it broadens my knowledge in various aspects. Some are very young and some are very old but I enjoy being around them and I know they like me too! *okay puke now!*

Amazing to notice they always praise me for having a beautiful smile. For the last 27 years of my life, I seldom get that kind of compliment. VERY SELDOM. But here, I can have it coming out from them almost all the time! And whenever I had a bad day, they will noticed and told me to smile more. It’s a beautiful feeling for me, not sure about you and not bothered either. So now I keep smiling coz I know it makes other people happy and I am happy too.

Every day and night, I talk to them. And they have been there to help me go through my hard times, and I really mean it when they really put a lot of effort to make me smile again. They made me realize that I’m way far ahead for my life experience and that’s the reason why we blend in like family. I took one step back to sit down and think deeply of that remarks. And I can’t help myself to agree with them. I’m too fast in gaining all this experience and now it’s kind of a problem for me to find people who can understand my feelings and thinking. I compared the conversation I used to have with my friends back at home and the outcome of it was never as comforting as what I get from these people now. I’m not saying those friends are no good but the level of experience that I have makes it different for them to get my message.

Now, I know what kind of friends and man I have to look for. I’m not going to leave my current friends behind. They have always been there for me when I need them. And I will always be here for them when they have come to that level of experience, for me to share a piece of my experience to help them go through their rough patch. To those who value me as their friends, I will keep treasuring you too. But those who take me as their friends based on their mood, I’ll do the same thing too. Treat me right and I’ll treat you right. *InsyaAllah*

I learn new things every day. No matter what happen today, take the good things with you and use it to start your day tomorrow. There’s always a good thing in everything that you do. I love talking to these people, who are way older than me. I call them grandpa and dad. And they all love joking with me. But hey, life is all about being happy and having fun.

And today I learn new definition of life from “dad” Kurt.. “No fake, no bullshit and no mickey mouse.. That's what I call life”. I love you all!!

*cheers*

Can I kill you?

2011-01-17T03:27:00.007+08:00

I'm not in the best state of mind at the moment. A crazy shocking unbelievable email surfaced at my inbox yesterday and I'm pretty much still in disbelief. I was beyond angry at first, and I just didn't know how to let my anger out. I wanted to cry but no matter how hard I tried, there were only small amount of tears came out. What is happening to me? Am I built like a brick wall now? Yikes!

But that email answered so many questions that I've been asking God to help me out. People say truth speaks itself one day, and no doubt it hurts like shit. Excuse me for my language but working in this field "enhanced" my vocabulary now. hoho.

I couldn't sleep well last night. Was awake in the middle of the night, thinking and more thinking. And today I was no doubt late for my shift! But, luckily I have this wonderful company man onboard who helped to comfort me last night before I went to bed so he understood my situation. Yeah, I burst into tears right on his shoulder..... *shame on me*

I'm not gonna tell you what that email was about. It's something for me to know and for you not to know. Well, some knew and that was considered as "unlucky" people who had to listen to my never ending sad stories. Sorry y'all. I'll try not to talk too much on this stupid crazy thing anymore.

I wanted to reply with a very long mean email back but if I ever did that, it will give a temporary relief to me. And I'm pretty much sure that I'll wake up tomorrow feeling sorry and sad again. Oh my, why do I have such a soft and biggggggg heart? Not that it's a bad thing, but sometimes being TOO nice really kills me. Or probably crushed since I'm still very much alive and kicking.

This is the gazillion times I say this. Whatever doesn't kill me will make me stronger. But whatever comes after this, will also be hell difficult. I've deleted few posts in this blog so that will give you some gist of the email content.

Now, I need to focus on what I should do next. I know I have to leave all this shit behind and move on. I have so many things to explore in front of me. I have a wonderful beautiful life experience, minus the shitty parts. I just hope I'll be wiser after this. And please GOD, can I have less challenging life episode after this?? Please, please, please????

Okay now I feel much better. Yes, writing does help. And shouting and screaming would probably help too but I'm trying with a different approach now. Hello, you're about to turn 28 this year so please be wiser and calmer!!! (that's a note to myself okay, not you!)

I better go and have a long (free) hot shower and try to get some sleep. If I still can't have a good deep sleep tonight, I'd probably get some sleeping pill from the doctor. Huh? Please please please sleep soundly hunny!!! Those drugs are no good~

I love myself. I really do. If you don't love me as much as I do, that's your problem. I don't bloody care. It's your loss, not mine. (sorry, I think I'm a bit retarded now, and yeah that title goes without saying).

*cheers*

bee-zee

2011-01-12T03:49:00.006+08:00

Dah lama terdiam blog ni. Busy nye saye!! Sungguh busy mengalahkan Menteri Petroleum Mauritania! Anyway, Happy New Year to all of you. Sesungguhnya tahun 2010 adalah tahun yang sungguh unik, menarik dan mencabar untuk saya. Hopefully tahun 2011 lebih bagus lah.. Amin...

Toksah la nak korek kisah lama. Expired dah. 2011 start lah first well saya di deepwater ni. No more tido sampai lapar, makan sampai letih (bunyi sungguh macam service hands okay!) Mulalah aktiviti nelayan wanita di laut dalam ni. Or bak kata orang-orang di rig, the bananas! (ya, coverall kitorang warna kuning yang amat terang macam banana).

Challenging la jugak bila dah ada responsibility ni kan. Walaupun tak design well ni 100% dan selalu "lost" je, tapi saya suka buat operations. Memang dah faham diri sendiri sangat sukakan benda yang hands-on dan dirty job nih. Boleh jadi handy mandy. Bila kena bab planning nak simulate ape jadi kat bawah seabed tu, uhhhh haruslah gagal! Kenapa tak ada orang design camera attach dekat atas bit tu eh? Senang sikit nak tengok, tak payah berangan nak masuk dalam formation untuk design well nih. Ok merapu. Pastilah korang tak berapa nak faham kan? Takpe, saya pun sama la..

Life wise, diakui ter-renggang dengan family sekejap. Sangat busy, mak, papa, kakak. Dulu takde keje boleh la asyik bergayut lawan bergossip kan. FB 24-7 dengan papa pun takpe. Ni nak pandang FB pun tak sempat ha. Last-last dapat la message dari papa cakap saya kurang interact dengan dia sekarang. :( tau, sangat sorry tak dapat nak call. Bila habis kerja kat sini, sana dah tengah malam. Most of the time memang once clock ticks 9 je, terus kojol. Kul 5.30 nanti dah nak bangun. Mengalahkan penoreh getah kerjaya saya ni. Plan asal kerja on 14 days rotation. Tapi nampak gaya macam selamanya di atas rig ni sampai habis well. Oh, mungkin pulang untuk refill toiletries dan benda-benda "wanita" kot. Tengok lah nanti.

Okay, mahu pengsankan diri. Esok masih banyak kerja nak buat.

*cheers*

Bienvenue à Paris

2010-12-12T15:53:00.004+08:00

It means Welcome to Paris.. I've finally made it to Paris early this morning after spending 3-1/2 months in numchuck (read:Nouakchott). Never thought I would be stationed in a desert for that long in my life. Well, to others who have stayed here permanently, 3-1/2 months is just a short period of time. But not for me. Remember this is the first overseas assignment for me, and the first African country too. To make it worse, I've been working non-stop throughout this period. No weekend, no off days after coming back from each hitch (read:offshore).

I SURVIVED!

Though I would consider myself as a cheap labour and I worked similar to the donkeys in town. I've pushed myself beyond my normal working limit, exceeded my fatigue limit and God knows how many times I've felt like killing people, or at least a donkey. My emotion moved according to the swell of the Atlantic Ocean and it's approaching wet season, hence the swell is VERY BAD! Luckily I've got the chance to go back to KL now, else I would have became a retard monster in numchuck.

I have my assessment scheduled on 14th, that is on Tuesday and I have yet to study for that! I'm prepared with all the reading materials but whenever I started reading, I'll end up snoring! (exaggerating!) Oh my, me and assessment or exam can never be best buddy! I used to stay up in the middle of the night whenever exam approached. Mom will prepare a nice cup of nescafe to help me stay awake. But today, I've had 2 cups of coffee and I'm caffeine intolerable but surprisingly, it didn't work! I fall asleep in this lounge, in front of everybody and I'm not sure how did I look like. :P

Now, I'm pretty much dizzy. Took 2 tablet of antihistamine since I'm having a bad runny nose. Weather here is 5 degC and eventhough I'm sitting in a building, the heater doesn't seem to do a good job. It's still damn cold and I'm just in a layer of hoodie. I was doing okay when I first entered the terminal but I guess my winter jacket caused me trouble. I need to get a new one without any fancy fur attached to it. Time to be wise and not kill myself just because I wanna look cute!~ (padan muka!)

Anyway, I'm less than 24 hours to be home. I'm gonna sleep the whole journey and be home without any jet lag! Not sure what to do tomorrow. Probably go to The Curve and have my hair trimmed or cut or whatever. Massage & mani+pedi with maktok. I wanna spoil maktok . See how she takes it. Kakak has to wait for her turn ya! ;p

Okay, I really really have to study. See you people tomorrow!! Can't wait to be home!!!!!

Camwhoring mode. I'm pretty sure I can be seen in the CCTV recording. Face of me when I just woke up, without make up and freezing!

I like the effect of the ceiling. And note the fur jacket. Ah-choom~

*cheers*

Makan Gaji Buta

2010-12-02T00:57:00.003+08:00

Weather started to pick up couple of days back and I've been seeing things upside down and walking like a drug addict since then. And I'm really non-productive today. Been browsing for non important items since morning. *sesungguhnya saya tengah makan gaji buta today*.. isk isk.. Anyway I've been tagged by darling Aliza and since I'm about to puke luring at so many laptops (and drooling/fantasizing at some of them too), I decided to heal myself from this obsession and here goes my pop quiz of the day..

My 25 Minutes Survey
Instruction : Once you are tagged, answer all the questions honestly. No lying or cheating.

Person who tagged : Aliza
Starting time : 5.20pm (Africa time)

Name : Harni
Full name : Harni Farihah Bt Mohd Safari Lai
Sibling(s) : 2 (second child)
Eye colour : Dark brown
Shoe size : 5
Hair : Short, straight, uneven, messy.. refer to Einstein's
Height : 154cm (pendeknye??)

What are you wearing right now : track bottom + I love HK tshirt bought by Aliza (ngee) + hoodie
Where do you live : currently in west africa..
Favourite number : 11
Favourite drink : milo (4 tblspoon milo + 1 tblspoon creamer) no sugar no milk!
Favourite month : July
Favourite breakfast : lempeng cicah susu!

******-Have you ever-******
Broken a bone : nope
Been in a police car : nope
Fallen for a friend : yupe
Fallen for a guy/girl in a short period of time : yupe
Swam in the ocean : yupe
Fallen asleep in school : yupe.. not always though.. i'm a nerd!
Broken someone's heart : a lot..... erk..
Cried when someone died : yupe
Sat by the phone all night waiting for someone to call : yupe
Saved e-mails : mostly
Been cheated on : Y.U.P.E!!!!

******-What-******
Your room looks like : a cabin (i'm on the rig now so nothing fancy about the room).. and i have no idea how my new room looks like since my sis has just moved to a new house and dragged my stuffs along..
What is right beside you : office wall full with pictures of Mauritania scenery..
What is the last thing you ate : a bar of chocolate..

******-Ever Had-******
Chicken pox : yupe
Sore throat : yupe
Stitches : yupe
Broken nose : nope

******-Do You-******
Believe in love at first sight : yupe
Like picnics? : yupe

******-Who-******
Who did you last yell at? : my ex boyfriend
Who was the last person you danced with? : my boyfriend
Who last made you smile? : him

******-Final Questions-******
What are you listening to right now? : tattoo - jordin sparks (yeah, stone age)
What did you do today? : controlling my imagination to get a macbook pro.. ;p
Are you the oldest? : nope
Indoors or outdoors? : both

******-Today did you-******
Talk to someone you like? : most of the time!
Kiss anyone? : yupe
Sing? : yupe
Talk to an ex? : yupe
Miss someone ? : yupe
Eat? : yupe

******-Last person who-******
You talked to on the phone? : my mom
Made you cry? : myself
Went to the movies with? : can't recall.. i think it was Sari..
You went to the mall with? : comrades @ las palmas..
Who cheered you up? : him

******-Have you-******
Been to Mexico? : nope
Been to USA? : nope

******-Random-******
Have a crush on someone? : not now
What books are you reading right now? : engineering handbook.. aci tak? hehe
Best feeling in the world? : no words can describe this.. all thanks to God
Future kids name? : zaara, isaac
Do you sleep with a stuffed animal? : nope
What's under your bed? : nothing
Favourite sport(s) : Wii? haha
Favourite place : home
Who do you really hate? : trying not to now.. used to hate my ex ;p
Do you have a job? : yes
What time is it now? : 5.45pm

p/s : With however long it took you to complete this, post as "My _____ Minutes Survey" and tag 15 people

not gonna tag anyone.. you can do if you want.. :)

*cheers*

Mummy, I'm coming home!

2010-11-25T15:25:00.003+08:00

Oh it's very blur! But whatever it is, take a good look at the date!! YES! I'm so gonna be home on 13th December 2010! That is in 2 weeks time people~ Weeee~~

So to my beloved SAHABAT, please clear your schedule for our most awaited gossip moment ya! I'll be in the office on 14th for my ACD Assessment (good luck to me!) and should be free after that. To Aliza, Beebee, Padi & Aliaa, really really hope to spend time with you!!

I should buy a ticket back to Perlis too since mommy couldn't extend her stay in KL. So, to PUAN Fariza, let me know if you're gonna be in Perlis or KL okeh? Note to Cik Emi too!

Rough plan for my 1 week holiday:

13/12 - Reach KL, back to my sister's new crib. Should I unpack my stuff or just let them stay in their boxes? Hmm.. Then, plan to spend whole day at The Curve, doing mani+pedi, a few waxing, get new haircut with potential new hair colour, eat good food, watch movie if there's any energy left. Hopefully I won't suffer prolong jet lag on this day. Potential meeting with Cik Emi???

14/12 - Go to the office, prepare for "interrogation" by the CTE. Spend time with bosses, saying Hi and provide updates with little hope they will give me good rating for my next appraisal ;p.. Meet Aliza, Beebee & Aliaa when time permits.. Will go for facial! My skin desperately needs a couple of facial treatment. Probably go for sauna and have nice body massage too..

15/12 - Thinking of flying back to Perlis. Need to start looking for ticket now. To be spoiled with mom's delicious cooking for days!

17/12 - Back in KL for weekend outing with sis & family. Or maybe stuck at home unpacking? Nahh.. Should go shopping and dining! Probably look for furniture for my house.

20/12 - Packing & probably have last facial.. fly back to la la land.. :(

21/12 - Shopping in Paris!! Weee~~ Please weather, don't be too cold!!

Now, I have to make list of what to buy from Nouakchott as souvenirs.. Told you, cottons are damn cheap here! ;)

*cheers*

Religion Part 1

2010-11-03T01:10:00.003+08:00

These past few weeks, I’ve been digging up information on many things that have been taught to me when I was young. I must admit that being born as Muslim, I had never put any attention to what I was told to do and not to do. In fact, there were times when I can’t really recall the 6 articles of faith (Iman), or probably get myself confused with the 5 pillars of Islam. Ignorant.

But now after being a typical Muslim for the past 27 years, I’ve started to realize and questions all the things that we were TOLD to do and not to do. Are all these clearly written in the Quran? Or was it just based on cultural beliefs, which most of you are aware, the Malays dictate the Islam more than the Quran.

This post is going to be a little bit BOLD as I had never wrote any kind of religious post before this (so far as I can recall). And before you read further, please get yourself prepared with what you’re about to read. It may be offended, some might even label me MURTAD or even ask me to “mengucap” again. But at least, I’m doing a research and I truly welcome your opinion, if you have any.

I would like to just start with the Quran and all the school of thoughts that we have now. Many of us would probably claimed we have “khatam” the holy book, but I must admit I didn’t even finish reading the Quran when I was young, not even up until now. The “ustazah” quit halfway and I was not sent to any other “ustazah” after that to complete my Quran lesson. In fact, the “ustazah” kept falling asleep during my readings and I doubt if I even have mastered all the “tajwid”. No, I’m not pointing any fingers to anybody. It all goes back to me when I was matured enough and good enough to take care of myself and my needs.

I tried reading the Quran on my own and bought myself a book on “tajwid”. Sometimes I just followed the “tajwid” lessons aired on TV at 6.30pm to make sure I have the right understanding. But then I never managed to finish reading the whole Quran. I always have this gap and after so long I would just start reading it again from the beginning. So it never ends! Couple years back, I bought the translation of the Quran, the “tafsir” since I realized I don’t really understand what was written in Quran, coz I don’t really speak or understand Arabic. I would like to know what does Quran trying to tell me and how can it benefit me.

There was a story about a young child asking his father the main reason for Muslim to recite Quran. And the father just gave him a very dirty basket and asked him to go to the river, to fill it up with water. The basket does not hold any water in it since it’s pretty much broken and was in poor condition. The child had no choice other than going back and forth filling up the basket with water to a point the father asked him to stop. The father then asked the child to look at the basket and see if there’s any difference. The dirty basket turned very clean from the “wash” the child did with the water. And the father said, reading Quran is similar to cleaning the basket from the dirt. It’s a purification process to human, Muslim in particular.

As much as I agree that reading Quran will make us feel closer to God, I beg to differ. Reading or probably reciting the Quran alone is not enough. It’s as if we complete reading the whole Engineering Handbook without really understanding the content. For instance, in order for me to design a well (be it oil or gas well), I must learn how to predict the pressures of the formation and the fracture gradients expected before I can simply set my casing point. So, if I do not understand the whole pore pressure prediction process, how can I design a good well that will not collapse nor burst and definitely will not be another Macondo well? (read: the Deepwater Horizon case). Probably this is too much of an example but bottom line is, how can you understand what Quran is trying to tell you if you don’t really understand Arabic?

Now, I’m slowly reading the translations. It’s not actually DIRECT translations. Most of the “tafsirs” are the interpretations of the translations. The words are translated to whichever language we prefer and there will be more interpretations attached to each verse. This triggers me, who did the translations and who did the interpretations? Does it really, exactly reflects the exact meaning of the “ayat”? Sounds like I’m sitting for the “Ujian Pemahaman” back in Primary School, where we have to find “isi tersirat” in each sentence. Then who can actually say our understanding and our interpretation is correct or wrong? Who can deny what we think or view? One must always remember that each of us sees things from different angle and we definitely have different views and opinions. Agree?

This then makes me realize that all 4 schools of thoughts that we have are mostly based on interpretation. I’ve yet to dig up information of all these 4. I’m curious. Why is Shafie deemed better than the other 3, Hanbali, Maliki and Hanafi? And how did we arrive to a decree that Shafie is the one that we must follow, in Malaysia? If I managed to dig up all info on all 4 schools of thoughts, can I follow Maliki, if I think it’s the best school based on my interpretation and views? Would that make me less Muslim than the others? Would you, as my family or friends see me differently, or probably would not accept me at all? Ok, probably I’m getting a little bit dramatic but thinking of how the Malays think, I can pretty much expect those things to happen.

I’ve found many other things that will definitely surprise most of you. But that will follow later. Do you think I’m less Muslim now or my faith is weak? Whatever you think, I don’t really care. To me, it’s better for me to fully understand the whole Islam by doing the research, obviously based on the Quran, rather than listening to what people think or the Majlis Fatwa thinks, or what Malays think. And most importantly, God is one, regardless of what schools of thoughts we follow, it all goes back to worship the one and only God. I’m not giving any conclusion. Yet.

*cheers*

Are You a Muslim?

2010-10-12T06:31:00.001+08:00

“Whoever works in oil & gas industry will go to hell. We cursed too much”

Ok. I bet most of you will have your jaw dropped for a second. Haha. That remarks actually came from a guy on the rig when I was “interrogated” by them on the real definition of Muslim.

I must admit this hitch is a bit different than before. It’s obviously my first time working overseas where majority of the crew are non-Muslims. We do have a few Muslims here, mostly are Indonesians and work as stewards. We don’t really work or spend time with stewards since our job mostly are done outside, on the rig floor.

One day, when I was in the driller’s cabin, a guy asked about my religion. Perhaps they associated Muslims with Hijab and since I don’t wear any, they can’t really tell what religion I am. So yes, I’m a Muslim and they asked if I go to pray when I’m on the rig. Again yes, I do go to pray 5 times a day when I’m on this rig and that just triggered them more questions.

Where and when do I go to pray? 5 times a day seems like a big burden to them since I have to stop my work for 5 freaking times a day. Don’t get me wrong with that “freaking” word. I’m trying to describe their reaction. There was even a nasty remark saying if I were to work as a Mud Engineer, I won’t be able to perform my prayers 5 times a day since my job requires me to be in the lab at all times. I was a little bit offended at first I must say but then I explained slowly that it doesn’t take much of time to pray. Perhaps you took more time when you go to pee and poo. And that 5 times a day is mostly misinterpreted during daylight only. So I had to carefully explain to them when I normally go to pray.

This rig is equipped with a Prayer Room. I believe people are more sensitive and realized that a Prayer Room is actually a necessity since we have lots of Muslims working offshore. But, no I don’t use the Prayer Room. Previously I stayed with another lady who worked on day shift with me. So it’s not a problem for me to go back to my cabin and pray. But when we had full POB (full bed) last week, my roommate was moved to another room where she had to stay with one of the government’s representative. The government lady refused to share room with man, so my roommate and I had to split.

I had the chance to stay with the government lady but frankly speaking, I refused since I don’t think I’m that patience to live with her. No offense, but it’s just me not able to tolerate much. So, I ended up having a male roommate but fret not, we work on different shift. Until today, I have no idea who the guy is coz we have not met since he came. That’s how it is here. You go out of the room from 6am to 6pm and the other person starts working from 6pm to 6am. You are not allowed to go back to your cabin as it will disturb your roommate’s sleep. A big NO NO.

Anyway, I pray in the female changing room. I have a thin mattress that was supposed to be used for our sunbathing activity but since my roommate left the rig, I have not been up on the helideck for sunbathing anymore. So I use that mattress and have my prayer mat on top of it. The changing room is clean and it has enough space for me to perform my prayers. It has 1 shower cube and 2 toilets. It’s all brand new and I don’t think it’s a big issue for me to pray in there. It has around 30 lockers for us to put our coveralls and other PPEs. I can use the Prayer Room but it is just more convenient for me to use the changing room.

Apart from prayers, more questions were asked like how can we fast for the whole freaking month without even drinking, let alone eating anything. And what was the purpose of fasting. Again, I had to carefully put my words as the last thing I want to do is to send the wrong message. I must admit I’m not really pious and my knowledge is not that great either. I really hope I have not said the wrong thing or they misinterpreted my words.

Most of the people here do not have any religion. They do believe in God but they just don’t follow any specific religion. And it was such a big fuss for them not being able to drink beer and have bacon on this rig. I wasn’t really bothered by their complaints. I don’t know how I can be so relax and almost heartless to hear all those complaints. I just don’t care.

To me, it’s all about what you believe. And whether we go to heaven or hell is between you and God. My dad once said “It’s much better to be a good Muslim internally than portraying externally like a Muslim but not behaving like one”. And he is a Chinese Muslim. I just love the quote. A sincere quote. And I love you too!

And yeah, we do curse a lot here. But it doesn't mean anything for offshore people. Our sentence is just incomplete without the F word. In other words, "cukup rasa". And no, I told them we wont go to f-ing hell just because we f-ing swear too much. I really don't f-ing think so. Haha it's soooo offshore!

Now, I need to do more reading and research. I'm pretty sure one day they will ask what is the reason for us to pray at all 5 times i.e. why at near-dawn, after sun's noon, afternoon, sunset and nightfall? And I just don't have any answer for that other than it is an ordained from Allah. Anybody wanna help?

Little sardine sunbathing on the green beach with the rest of the whales. That's what they called me here anyway. LOL

*cheers* <- this is just another word. Not that I'm having beer with you or anything ok!

Lucky

2010-10-09T21:31:00.003+08:00

Lately I’ve been traveling a lot and I received quite a number of envious comments from my peers. People keep telling me how jealous they are looking at me living a wonderful life and how lucky I am with all those paid vacations.

I must admit I’m a bit luckier compared to other people when it comes to work related issues but at the same time I too envy those people who are blessed with wonderful life and happy family. I keep telling them don’t look at what I have but zoom more into what you have and treasure them. I am happy living life traveling around the world but I might be happier just by having a good husband and wonderful kids around me.

Different people have different needs. I do love traveling and yes I won’t stop traveling until I’ve covered almost the whole world, insyaAllah. But at the same time, I think those who are blessed with good husband and healthy children are just luckier and shouldn’t envy me that much. We can be happy no matter where we are but we can’t be happy if we are all alone right?

I’m not alone. I have my wonderful family close to my heart always. I’m thankful to be given another chance to be close with my family and treasure them the most. At this age, I finally have the opportunity to be a good friend to both my father and my mother. That’s how the bond of parents and daughter should be. They are not our parents, they are our best friends. I gossip more with my father lately. I guess I’m just getting older to be able to gossip with a 67 year old guy! Oh~

Anyway, the main message of this post is try not to think of what others have too much because sometimes you just don’t know how much those people envy you with what you have. Though you only have a small hut but it means a lot to certain people! Not every bungalow is a nice place to live in, especially those haunted ones! LOL!

This is one of my favorite pictures. Location: Southbank, London. So yes, I'm lucky!

*cheers*

Officially

2010-10-02T16:19:00.002+08:00

a month! Exactly a month now.. well terlebih sehari (1 mo 1 day).. Sebulan dah bermusafir kat negara orang nih.. Kejap rasa laju je masa.. ada hari rasa sangat slow.. So, update untuk sebulan:

Alhamdulillah, life is definitely getting better. Kalau recall post awal-awal kisah homesick tu dah boleh senyum kambing gelak kat diri sendiri..
Dah tau kat mana nak cari makanan yang sedap! Plenty of good and cheap food available in the country. Ada ayam yang ala-ala Nandos gitu.. boleh la~~
Been to the Capital Market.. itu ala-ala shopping street diorang lah.. more like a bazaar cina kalau kat kangar tuh.. hehe.. They sell lots of things, from jubah, kain cotton, dresses, jeweleries versi main-main tu.. macam2 lah.. Jubah are pretty cheap. Bought one for my BIL @ RM30. And the quality is good too. Kain cotton pulak mostly priced around RM15 to RM20 for 5 meters. 5 meter = RM15 ok! bukan semeter! haha.. This is ridiculously cheap and I'm sure gonna stock up my kain cotton before I go back to Malaysia nanti. Mak sungguh excited ye bila dengar kain sangat murah.. Haha..
I like working on the rig more than the office. Coz they have lots of entertainment!
Hari-hari main Wii sampai sore arm. I can't lift my right arm at the moment due to excessive boxing and tennis. Had lots of fun with the crew here.
Dah pandai jugak ber Foosball! takdela tangan bangku rupanya.. haha
They have quite an impressive Gym so I've been working out a lot lately. Ke arah badan yang sihat dan cergas!
Food dkt atas rig dah makin menurun taraf kesedapannya. They had crew change and I prefer the previous cook more than the current one. I eat less lately. Camne nak gumuk la?
I kinda miss home too. But I keep on calling Mak every 2 days or so when I have time. It's a bit hard to gossip coz the line gets delayed by few seconds so nanti berebut dengan mak nak bergossip huhu..
Wonder what's going on with my Papa. He's been less active in FB now. Dulu hari-hari kemaruk FB.. Where have you been Pa?? (he's a silent reader.. shy reader.. lol) Maybe I should give him a call too
My sis seems to be very busy.. Macam tengah run for PM post pulak.. hihi.. You wanna go for election in Gebeng or Kerteh? ;p hope everything is fine there..
Work wise.. Hurm..I kinda realize I'm a bit impatience when it comes to teaching people who doesn't use the correct tone and words in asking questions.. Some sort of nak marah gitu.. Haha.. That's why I personally think it's important for you to use the correct words and tone when you wanna ask something.. Ke saya yang lebih emosi? Tapi kalau orang lain tanya I can be very happy to teach them. Kadang-kadang tu mungkin rasa poyo sekejap sebab asyik nak share new things I learned without being asked. Haha. Confirm tak boleh jadi cikgu nih.. Oh I'm referring to the ministry people yang arab tuh.. Mungkin perasaan kurang suka dgn the previous reps yang bercakap seakan-akan tercekik microphone dalam tekak dia tu kot..then ter-assume semua orang arab-africa ni mcm ni peelnye.. Will try to be nicer to them after this... Fuh!
These few days banyak emo dengan management in town & KL. Now dah masuk tahap malas nak layan. So mood happy dah surge.. Sebabnya bebel lah berhari-hari pun takdenye things gonna change or gets better. So jangan buang masa, jangan buang tenaga muncung sana sini.. Tapi lepas ni dah tau la selok belok management so takde lah dorang boleh tabur janji manis camtu je kan?
Weather kat sini sangat best! Memang belom ada belang-belang dkt muka lagi lah sejak-sejak naik rig nih. Maybe bcoz we are 153km from the beach so panas pantai tu kurang kot? haha tahla.. ni theory sendiri.. Plus the rig is humongous so banyak benda ala-ala skyscraper meng-cover sinaran matahari..
Ok tetiba takde mood. Bye

Nilai sebuah PEKERJAAN

2010-09-24T22:49:00.004+08:00

I received an interesting email from a dear friend A (thanks darling) and feels like sharing it with all of you.. Membuatkan saya pun tersentak sekejap.......... Enjoy reading though it's a bit lengthy... =)

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"Kenapa anda mahu jadi doktor?", saya melemparkan soalan ini, selepas mempertontonkan kepada pelajar di IMU tadi video dari koleksi Stephen R. Covey.

Pelajar yang hadir tersenyum-senyum.

"Sebab minat biologi?", saya bertanya.

Ramai yang ketawa. Itu mungkin alasan semasa di Tingkatan 4 dahulu.

"Sebab suka tolong orang?", saya terus bertanya.

Ramai yang mengangguk.

"Well, come on. Ramai yang hantar anak buat perubatan supaya boleh rawat ibu bapa sendiri nanti. Tetapi realitinya, kamu bukan manusia pertama boleh muncul memberikan rawatan jika berlaku apa-apa kepada ibu bapa. Malah ketika di bilik pembedahan dan wad kecemasan, ahli keluarga bukanlah calon terbaik untuk merawat ahli keluarga sendiri. Namanya, profesionalisma." saya menyambung provokasi.

"Kamu nak tolong suami, isteri dan anak-anak? Rasa saya, suami doktor, isteri doktor dan anak-anak doktorlah yang paling banyak kena berdikari", saya terus mencucuk jarum.

"Saya selalu beritahu isteri, bahawa apabila awak berjaya jadi specialist nanti, jangan lupa bahawa orang yang paling banyak berkorban ialah tiga orang ini. Anak-anak kita. Merekalah yang berkorban, melepaskan masa yang sepatutnya kita beri kepada mereka, agar kita berjaya", saya berkongsi cerita.

Saya sengaja mengacah pelajar-pelajar di IMU supaya berfikir bersungguh-sungguh, mengapa mereka memilih bidang perubatan.

Jika anda seorang perempuan yang bakal menjadi doktor, anda perlu tahu bahawa walaupun negara amat terdesak kepada adanya ramai tenaga pakar, anda tidak akan diberikan 'kemudahan' untuk menjadi pakar. Anda tidak ada cuti bersalin, seandainya anda 'termengandung' semasa sedang membuat program pakar. Anda tidak menerima sebarang elaun untuk membeli buku. Semua kena guna duit sendiri. Kursus dan seminar yang anda hadir, anda mesti membayarnya sendiri. Mungkin anda terpaksa menawarkan diri menjadi AJK agar dapat dikecualikan dari yuran, walaupun anda tahu akibat menjadi AJK itu. Semua orang mahu anda bekerja seperti orang lain, ketika anda terdesak menghadapi peperiksaan. Tiada belas, tiada insentif.

Misalnya isteri saya, kerana 2 minggu cuti yang diperuntukkan untuk kecemasan dan lain-lain, sudah pun digunakan bersalin, lupakanlah kenduri kendara di kampung, lupakanlah ibu bapa, 6 bulan tiada cuti.

Bukan calang-calang kerja.

Anda mahu menjadi pelajar perubatan kerana mahu menolong orang? Tolonglah diri sendiri kerana anda yang amat memerlukan pelbagai pertolongan itu nanti.

"Maka, apa tujuan anda mahu menjadi doktor?", soalan yang sama saya ulang sekali lagi.

Pelajar-pelajar itu termenung. Sesi soal jawab tiada soalan, kerana semua soalan adalah untuk ditanya kepada diri sendiri, dan diri sendirilah yang perlu menjawabnya.

PERSOALAN NILAI

Kuliah kali ini adalah tentang nilai. APA NILAI YANG DIBAWA DALAM SEBUAH PEKERJAAN? Dalam sebuah kehidupan.

Jika seorang isteri mengungkit di hadapan suami, bahawa kerja rumahnya, kerjanya 'melayan suami', tidak mungkin mampu dibalas walaupun dengan bayaran RM2000 sebulan, maka nilai apakah yang ada pada dirinya? Saya tidak bermaksud membela lelaki yang tidak tahu menghargai isterinya, tetapi dalam kes ini, si perempuan itu sudah menjatuhkan dirinya.

Hanya 'bibik' sahaja yang buat kerja rumah untuk duit. Maafkan saya, hanya pelacur sahaja yang meletakkan harga pada layanannya terhadap seorang lelaki.

Seorang ibu membuat kerja rumah kerana Nilai Kasih Sayang. Seorang isteri juga melakukan apa yang ia lakukan atas NILAI KASIH SAYANG. Maka tanpa kasih sayang, perkahwinan adalah beban. Malah sumber kebencian.

Menentukan nilai, sebagai pendorong kita melakukan sesuatu adalah sangat penting. Nilai itu akan mencorakkan tingkah laku kita terhadap pekerjaan yang kita lakukan.

NILAI DUIT

Kalau pekerjaan diukur dengan nilai wang, maka kita akan berhadapan dengan banyak masalah , walaupun wang berjaya diperolehi.

Sekarang ni sudah menjadi satu trend kepada dua industri, kalau boleh saya katakan industri. Yang pertamanya adalah industri perubatan, dan yang keduanya, industri berkaitan petroleum . Trend yang saya maksudkan di sini, adalah perpisahan di antara seorang suami atau isteri dengan pasangannya, serta anak-anak, kerana prospek kerjaya dan desakan nilai wang itu tadi.

Sudah menjadi kebiasaan, pasangan yang sudah berumahtangga, berpisah sementara (bukan calang-calang sementara) demi melepaskan isteri yang bekerja sebagai jururawat di luar negara, khususnya di negara Teluk. Begitu juga dengan mereka yang terbabit dengan industri petroleum, bekerja di negara Teluk dan Afrika, menyahut saranan majikan untuk meningkatkan kerjaya dan pendapatan dengan berhijrah ke negara yang menagih kepakaran kita. Ia hebat, menggiurkan. .. tetapi output daripadanya merunsingkan saya.

Itu, belum lagi dikorek kisah suami di Johor, isteri di Pulau Pinang atau Kuala Lumpur ..

Trend ini berlaku dan merebak di dalam masyarakat, dan saya ditakdirkan Allah bertemu dengan outputnya. Saya bertemu dengan anak-anak remaja, yang ayah mereka pulang ke Malaysia 4 kali setahun. Saya bertemu dengan kes, suami main kayu tiga ketika isteri meninggalkannya gersang setahun di tanah air. Saya juga bertemu dengan kes isteri yang mem'poligami' kan suaminya dengan bersuamikan orang lain semasa di perantauan. Dan kes-kes ini membiak dari semasa ke semasa. Tidak pernah menjadi tajuk berita. Nauzubillah

Tentu sahaja, hasil kewangan dari kenaikan pangkat dengan bekerja jauh dari pasangan dan anak-anak, boleh mengubah nasib keluarga. Tetapi perubahan itu apakah ke arah positif atau negatif? Maka yang dikejar dalam sebuah rumah tangga dan perkahwinan, apakah boleh disandarkan pada nilai material?

NILAI - HARGA - KORBAN

Nilai berkadar terus dengan harga. Tinggi nilai, tinggilah harga. Tinggi harga, banyaklah korban dan pengorbanan yang diperlukan bagi mendapatkannya. Untuk bekerja dengan gaji RM10,000 sebulan, apakah harga yang perlu dibayar untuk nilai material RM10K itu? Kehancuran rumah tangga, kepincangan emosi dan identiti anak-anak, dosa... itulah harga yang mungkin perlu dibayar untuk nilai material yang dijadikan asas bekerja.

Anak-anak yang mewah dengan nilai material ini, gersang dan menderita pada nilai kasih sayang dan perhatian ibu bapanya. Sering saya ulang, 'mereka adalah generasi yang kesunyian'.

Jangan terkejut, dengan hanya 3 hari perkenalan, seorang remaja boleh menjadi mangsa lelaki yang berniat jahat. Mengapa begitu mudah? Lelaki itu memberi sesuatu yang tiada diperolehi remaja tersebut di dalam keluarganya iaitu KASIH SAYANG dan PERHATIAN.

Malam ini saya mahu pelajar-pelajar yang hadir ke kuliah ini, melatih diri mereka dengan tabiat " Begin With the End in Mind". Lihatlah apa yang menanti di hujung perjalanan mereka sebagai seorang doktor perubatan, jurutera dsb

TENTUKAN NILAI SEAWAL PERJALANAN

Maka, semenjak mereka di bangku pengajian, soal nilai yang ingin dibawa pada kerjaya di masa hadapan, mesti ditentukan.

Anda boleh mengambil sikap tidak mengendahkan hal ini, bekerjalah selagi mampu, kejarlah habuan material yang dikejar selama ini, tetapi anda perlu meneliti harga yang perlu dibayar. Perhatikan di mana korbannya? Harga dan korban itu mungkin rumah tangga, mungkin pesakit, dan yang paling besar, mungkin sistem itu sendiri.

Hati saya amat terhiris, mendengar kawan-kawan saya dan isteri, mengeluh tentang satu demi satu penceraian yang menimpa pasangan doktor. Sama ada kedua-dua suami dan isteri itu doktor, atau salah seorang daripada mereka.

PROVOKASI DEMI MASA DEPAN

Atas provokasi inilah, saya mengajak sahabat - sahabat, untuk menyemak hubung kait bidang pekerjaan dengan Tujuan Hidup mereka. Kenang kembali siapa mereka di alam ini? Kenal diri, dan kenallah Ilahi.

Kita sebagai hamba Allah, menjaga tali kita dengan Dia yang disembah. Yang diabdikan diri kepada-Nya. Ia hablun minaLlah.

Kita sebagai khalifah, menjaga tali kita dengan manusia ciptaan-Nya, kerana kita ditugaskan menjadi saluran kebaikan-Nya ke alam ini. Ia hablun minannaas.

Buat baik kepada sesama manusia, boleh dengan sedekah, boleh dengan memimpin tangan si buta di pinggir jalan. Namun sedekah hanya sekali sekala, orang buta bukan setiap hari kita jumpa. Jalan kebaikan yang paling utama, adalah pada menjadikan kerja sebagai ibadah. Memberi kebaikan kepada manusia, melalui pekerjaan yang dikurniakan Allah kepada kita.

JIKA KERJA JADI IBADAH

Jika kerja jadi ibadah, Allah adalah 'CEO' kita. The unsung hero beroleh quwwah, untuk terus membuat kebaikan, biar sekecil mana pun di mata insan.

Jika kerja jadi ibadah, ia jalan Taqarrub kepada Allah. Tidak tergamak menghambur dosa, kerja dibuat sebaik yang upaya.

Jika kerja jadi ibadah, biar sempit jalan KEPERLUAN, asalkan luas perjalanan mencapai TUJUAN.

Ubah paradigma, betulkan nilai pada kerja.

Teruskan cita-cita kalian menjalani kerjaya masing-masing. Ia cara terbesar, kamu zahirkan syukur kepada-Nya.

Kita hamba-Nya, kita Khalifah-Nya.

Ma Maison (rumah saya)

2010-09-22T23:10:00.004+08:00

Cewah sejak duduk Mauritania asyik speaking French gitu.. Bolehla sepatah dua kata nak jadi peramah dengan guard-guard kat sini.. Lepas tu bila dia reply dengan lajunya terusla terkebil-kebil tak faham apa.. haha..

Anyway, today dapat khabar berita. Rumah yang ditunggu dah boleh ambil kunci. Tunggu bank fully disburse lagi 2.5% then boleh la start operation sewa-menyewa! Ye, saye beli sebuah rumah di sekitar Ampang tu. Dekat area-area Korean sana. Rumah ni besau 1290sq ft. Boleh buat padang futsal la jugak kot? Plan memang tak nak duduk. Nak rent out. Sesapa yang ada bakat terpendam jadi agent rumah bolehlah tolong-tolong saya eh? Ataupun sesapa BERMINAT nak menyewa pun boleh jugak! Empty boleh, semi furnished boleh fully furnished pun boleh you~

Aritu developer cakap kunci boleh ambik in Nov/Dec timeframe. Pikir2 sempat la balik untuk furnish sendiri rumah ni. Tup-tup dah siap dah. Alamak express rakyat la pulak eh. Harap-harap lambat lagi la bank disburse balance 2.5% tu ye. Lewat la start bayar rumah. haha. Tapi ni ada pulak cakap dalam surat tu kena pegi MPAJ untuk sign sijil kelayakan menduduki. Alamak! Camne pulak tu? Nak balik untuk bi-monthly appointment dengan dokter pun boss tak bagi, ni kan pulak nak balik untuk sign kelayakan menduduki? Hmm.. Ada sesapa yang penah berpengalaman dalam hal ni tak? I mean new house la..

Apa-apa pun excited jugak nak furnish rumah ni. Kesian kakak saya nak kena tolong jadi runner. Takpe kak, nanti balik cakap la nak makan apa.. hehe.. Nasib baik jugak ada anak jiran sebelah rumah masa kat kampung dulu kerja bab-bab ID nih. So mintak dia yang tolong furnish kan aje. Kebetulan pun dia jugak bakal di-hire oleh kakak saya untuk reno rumah dia nanti. 2 in 1 la gitu kannn! Harini kebetulan server email semua down. Makanya lagho je lah. Surf sana surf sini cari harga untuk buat budget nak furnish rumah. Gedebak gedebuk cecah 5 angka!! Hah pengsan!!! Kalau ada yang tau kat mana boleh cari peralatan rumah i.e. kitchen appliances, audio/video & furniture yang sungguh ROCK BOTTOM tu sila lah roger saya ya! Sangat-sangat menghargainye!

Ni saje la kekonon nak table out apa yang perlu dibeli. Last-last jadi ala-ala arkitek murahan. Sekali tengok baru perasan.. Sungguh buruk tulisan ku!! :p Tulisan engineer camni kot?? Ni lay out yang tak ikut scale. Siap tak ingat kat mana location toilet untuk master bedroom. So belasah aje.. Adalah tu dia di mana-mana kan.. Otak dah blur.. Ada apa-apa lagi yang perlu ditambah ke eh? Tolong bagi idea~~ Ramai kawan-kawan dah beli rumah ni kan... Sharing is caring la sikit.. hihi

Spread the words jugak untuk sesiapa yang nak menyewa.. Atau nak jadi agent.. Sapa cepat dia dapat! cewah! Ok.. saya kena benti melagho.. Kerjalah!!

Facebook Limit

2010-09-21T22:30:00.004+08:00

Limit macam speed limit. Bukan ya rakan-rakan. Topic kali ni saje je bikin panas. Fesbuk seperti yang diketahui ramai memang mudah digunakan, menceriakan dan mengundang bahana pun banyak juga ya. So saya pun rasa dah lama nak publish post pasal mukabuku ni tapi asyik tergendala aje.

Few things I noticed about people utilizing their FB account nih. Memang lah dekat status update tu dia cakap "what's on your mind?" tapi that does not mean setiap satu perkara yang ada dalam benak kamu tu harus wajib kamu update. Ye kan? Tapi siapalah saya nak menghalang kamu. Dah nama pun account kamu. Type le apa yang kamu suka. Tapi pada saya biarlah apa yang kita cerita dekat rakan-rakan tu ditapis dulu.

Contoh 1:

Si A type dekat wall suaminya/isterinya si B "Ayang, I rindu kat you la.. Malam ni malam jumaat kan? Pakai wangi-wangi ya"

That kind of situation lah. Saya tak boleh la nak copy paste sebijik-sebijik apa yang telah saya nampak di FB saya tu. Nanti menjatuhkan maruah Si A dan juga Si B. Tapi nasihat saya pada Si A dan Si B, biarlah rahsia rumahtangga kamu tu terusss menjadi rahsia. Bukan la saya ni jealous ke apa dengan tahap kemesraan super duper trooper kamu tu tapi saya rasa jelek la bila baca status update macam tu.. Well, again this is just an example. Don't misinterpret this point ya? =)

Contoh 1 ni sepatutnya lebih mendalam. Tapi nanti saya takut orang tu terasa pulak. Maklumla blog ni direct link dengan FB kan. Saya nak bagi nasihat pun, dah hint dua tiga kali tapi masih tak jalan. Mungkin tak semua tahu cara mencari isi tersirat kot? Wallahu'alam. Apa-apa pun saya buat post ni bukan nak jatuhkan sesiapa tapi just utk remind diri sendiri. Harap-harap bila saya dah kemaruk berkeluarga nanti takde la setiap masa saya update status perhubungan saya dan suami.. hehe.

Contoh 2:

=(

Apa interpretation kamu dengan emoticon yang sebijik camni? Sudah pasti ramai yang berlumba-lumba nak comment status kamu kan? Akan ada yang concern dengan kamu dan tanya kenapa? etc.. Ada juga yang sendiri interpret based on your previous status updates. Ala-ala buat correlation gitu lah. Kalau mengena sasaran, baguslah. Tapi kalau tersasar boleh mengundang gaduh! Betul kan? Kamu sedih sebab A tapi ada orang yang ingat kamu sedih sebab B dan tanpa diduga orang lain buat comment yang tak kena dengan citarasa kamu. Dengan emoticon yang sebijik tu, mana mungkin orang boleh interpret perasaan kamu kalau tiada cerita sepenuhnya bukan? Makanya, wajarkah kamu utk terasa hati dengan comment-comment orang lain yang tak memenuhi citarasa kamu? Sendiri tanya sendiri jawab lah tuan-tuan dan puan-puan..

Contoh 3:

Tak guna pakcik ni.. Tak guna pakcik tu..

Haa yang ni sangat common.. Marah dengan pakcik moto yang kamu hampir nak langgar pagi tadi berbakul-bakul kamu update dekat facebook. Satu je soalan saya.. Pakcik moto tu ada dalam friend list kamu tak? Dia tahu tak kamu tengah marah membuak-buak dengan dia? Kalau ada baguslah, tapi kalau ada memang saya tabik spring la kan! So kalau jawapannya takde, kamu rase apa faedah yang kamu dapat dari status tersebut? Well, mostly akan ramai la orang yang mengapi-apikan kamu dekat comment section tu. Biasala manusia. Bila bercerita panas je, mesti ramai yang participate. Daripada kamu marah di scale 2/10 terus kamu cecah boiling point 10/10! Ting! Ting! Tahniah! Anda berjaya dapat tempat pertama gitu! Ha kan betul tu. So kesimpulannya, kalau marah tu tengokla ada faedah tak untuk kita update status kita macam tu.. Kadang-kadang memang la nak kongsi perasaan marah tu tapi kalau dah maki berbakul-bakul tu lain jadinya eh?

Contoh 4:

Govt makan duit rakyat! etc etc!

Oh tolong jangan sita blog saya eh. Saya bagi CONTOH aje tau! Golongan ni kalau ada dalam list kawan kamu memang sentiasa penuh la FB kamu. Macam-macam jenis link dia tampal di wall dia. Tapi yang syoknya kan, kamu beria-ia marah parti tu parti ni, tapi ade ke datuk-datuk, tan sri-tan sri tu dengar leteran kamu? Kalau ada baguslah, at least berbaloi la kamu update status hari-hari tu. Tapi kalau SUARA RAKYAT kamu tu tak sampai ke telinga pembesar-pembesar ni, apa faedahnya? So far I don't see any SIGNIFICANT impact pun on this thing. Berbakul-bakul kamu suarakan pendapat kamu pun, nobody listen. Except kaum-kaum yang sewaktu dengan kamu yang akan sama-sama menghangatkan topic yang kamu dah update kan tu.

Okeh. I'm not supposed to PERTIKAIKAN sesiapa di sini. Tapi ni semua observation sahaja. And also for my own note. Nanti bila dah jadi melayu-mudah-lupa punya spesis, boleh la baca balik post ni. hehe. For all 4 contohs, ada reason kenapa saya raise di blog ni... Sila lihat before kamu misinterpret point penulisan saya:

Reason 1: Like I mentioned in the contoh itself, some things are better left unsaid. Or lebih wajib lagi kalau saya cakap, hal rumahtangga toksah la cerita dekat facebook tu. Yang membahagiakan memang la disukai tapi hal-hal dalam selimut tu biarkan terus tinggal dalam selimut ya...

Reason 2: Kalau tengah sedih, jangan update status anda. Dah tentunya anda sedih, emosi anda ntah kat point negative mana dah. So bila orang comment, anda akan melantun ke point yang lagi negative. Cara terbaik, diam aje. Tak pun update la kejap (yeah sometimes writing helps to change your mood) then after a while delete balik post tu supaya takde orang misinterpret emosi kamu dan kamu pun kurang ber-emosi..

Reason 3: Same applies to this point. Memang lumrah la bila marah nak luahkan pada seseorang. Tapi ingatkan FB tu berorang-orang. Bukan seorang dua. Dan ingatlah bila kita tengah marah, ramai yang suka mengapi-apikan kita. Tanpa sedar, tahap marah yang tadinya minor dah jadi boiling point! Again, update sekejap kalau kamu rasa itu membantu kamu untuk meredakan kemarahan. Ataupun itu lah satu-satunya cara kamu meng express diri kamu. After a while delete la post tu. Tak elok rasanya asyik bagitau orang lain kamu marah. Orang pun tak suka kawan dengan kamu kalau asyik marah aje status kamu..

Reason 4: Yang ni susah nak kata. Saya pun belom ada solution untuk ini. Habis sangat saya HIDE aje orang ni dari status update tu. Hehe. So takde la sakit mata hari-hari mengadap politikalllllzzz (yes I don't like politics at all..) Cuma kalau ada yang terbaca ni, jangan lah jadi extreme sangat. Marah berbakul-bakul dekat kerajaan pun, kamu tu hidup lagi senang dari saya tau. At least kerajaan kita tak abaikan rakyat sepenuhnya macam kerajaan di Mauritania ni. Yang kaya tuh maha kaya dan yang miskin tu memang rumah pun tak ade.. So bersyukurlah seadanya......

Conclusion: I've done all 4 of the above (no 4 tu marah sebab income tax banyak sangat haha) and that was done before I came to my senses. I had a LONG discussion about FB misusage with my dad recently (ha anda jangan tak tau, papa saya pun ada FB juga tau! Long live my 67 years old papa!) and he pointed out some key things that we have to always remember about using our FB. Don't simply express your mind especially when it comes to your emotion. Kalau anda perasan early this month memang banyak post emosi saya.. Maklumlah tak dapat balik raya. Siap ada yang kena maki direct lagi. Not long after that I wrote an apology note to everybody and deleted the previous post. Well, I've been deleting my posts when I feel better. Sometimes bila marah kita bertindak ikut perasaan. So bila dah reda, kita delete la balik sambil rasa bodohnya saya ni.. benda mcm ni pun nak cerita dekat satu dunia kah? Kadang-kadang rasa malu dengan rakan-rakan yang baca post-post emosi saya tu. Sekarang saya cuba sedaya upaya untuk update yang happy-happy aje dan yang berfaedah. Yang emosi tu semua tolak tepi lah.. Say NO to negative energy!!

Ok, buat yang terasa dengan comment saya, maaf dipinta. Memang kita sebagai manusia tak patut pertikai apa tindakan orang. Tapi lumrah manusia biasa yang memang suka mengomel sana sini.. Saya ada HIDE beberapa orang dari status update tu sebab saya taknak nanti saya tercomment benda yang tak patut akibat dari status update anda. Jangan terasa hati ya. =)

p/s: corak penulisan dah berubah. bagus kah tidak bagus kah? Kamu rasa?

*cheers*

Satu petang...

2010-09-20T22:43:00.004+08:00

..di hari Senayan (bahasa apakah itu eh?).. Anyway, hari ni rasa macam membuak-buak perasaan nak update blog nih. Tah apa kena tah tapi okay la kan? At least ada perasaan rajin di situ.. keh keh..

Pejam celik tido tegolek bagai dah 3 minggu saya kat bumi asing nih. Saya? Oh ya, harus tukar pertuturan sebab papa dan adik mungkin baca blog ni. Papa saya ye lah tapi adik saya tu tak tau la dia dah khatam blog2 ni ke belom. Bagus lah, boleh disiplin kan diri untuk control post2 rant emo dan gossip sebagainya! yeay~

3 minggu. Nak rasa lama ke nak rasa kejap ni? Rasa macam dah lama sangat duduk kat Africa ni. Tapi start dari mid last week terus rasa macam jam tu di tune ke fastest speed. It all started since saye pegi naik rig hari Rabu minggu lepas (15 Sept 2010). Before that, setiap hari muka saya toya macam tayar pancit je. Jalan pun malas je. Buat kerja apatah lagi. Normal speed untuk siapkan 1 task paling lama pun 2 hours. Saya ni cukup cepat buat kerja. Tebiat dalam diri memang suka race against time. Suka complete task ahead of time. Ka ching ke arah PPA 1~! Oh, untuk kamu yang tak tahu PPA 1 tuh apa.. meh sini saya nak jelaskan.. PPA stands for Personal Performance Appraisal or something like that lah.. yang pasti ianya Appraisal kerja. Ada 4 ranking, 1 2 3 dan of course lah 4 kan. 1 tuh memang kamu itu sangat la superman! Mantop gitu keje. Outstanding sungguh. 2 pulak kamu tetap mantap tapi kamu tak cukup syarat untuk naik pangkat jadi President lagi.. (hoho).. 3 pulak kamu buat kerja cukup-cukup makan aje. Kamu meet expectation lah. Tak lebih tak kurang. 4 pulak kamu seolah-olah tak cukup berusaha. Ha cenggitu lah kekdahnye.. paham tak? Tak faham nasib kome lah..

2 minggu pertama memang sangat lembab. Bukan PPA 4 lagi dah tapi saya rate diri saya PPA 5! Makan gaji buta! Sebabnye? Kerja-kerja engineering design semua disiapkan nun dia Kuala Lumpur negeri metropolitan idaman ramai. So saya kat sini buat apa? Sepatutnya buatlah follow up dengan contract-contract yang bakal digunakan nanti. Tapi tu dah jadi kerja boss saya kat sini. Main task saya sepanjang assignment ni adelah kerja di atas rig. Ok kalau tak tahu rig tuh apa, sila google. Nanti blog saya jadi tempat explain itu ini pulak.. Memandangkan rig ni ada sikit delay untuk commence drilling, tercungap-cungap la saya meneruskan hidup dekat darat ni (bunyi macam ikan kaloi tak cukup air pulak?). So bila dapat je green light untuk terjah rig hari Rabu haritu, wahhh saye dah happy semacam baru dapat kawin dengan Datuk yang masih muda bergetah! hahahah. sungguh kronik analogy saya. Maaflah dik non kalau rasa ni kurang appropriate. hihi..

Mari cakap pasal happiness saye. Naik rig yang sungguh besar tu sangat la menggumbirakan hati sanubari saye. First time untuk saye naik this type of rig. Rig ada macam-macam jenis. Sila google "rig type". So yang ini jenisnya semi-submersible rig. Dalam erti kata lain, dia separuh tenggelam. Ada pontoon bagai untuk mengapungkannye. Ok boring topic teeeeet. SS (singkatan untuk semi-sub) ni ade banyak generation. This one adelah the 6th generation. Kalau tak salah saye memang terlatest di pasaran lah! Pengalaman saya sebelum-sebelum ni semua dengan rig buruk-buruk dan tua-tua belaka. Maka kali ni dapat rig yang fresh from the oven tu memang menarik tertarik! Rig ni punye besau! Living quarters dia adalah seakan-akan rumah flat 5 tingkat! Hari-hari saya kena angkut badan saye yang tak berapa besar ni naik turun 5 tingkat tau! Harap-harap body mantop la lepas ni.. hahaha (ops, sungguh kurang statement ini). Kalau adik saya baca statement ni, mintak maaf la ye.. Kakak kamu kurang stabil emosi hari ini.. haha..

Berbalik kepada cerita rig saya. Saye satu-satunye WANITA (wahh!) kat atas rig tuh so as expected kebanyakan mata adalah mengekor saya lah.. (ohhh perasannya!) Saye jugak dapat layanan lebih la. Bukan layanan lebih apa pun, kalau saya tanya itu ini, dapat la macam-macam explanation daripada diorang. Unlike my colleague yang tentunya seorang jejaka, dia kena usaha lebih untuk gain their respect and kaut information.. Syukur alhamdulillah dilahirkan sebagai perempuan comel.. (sila muntah sekarang haha).. Saye jugak dapat peluang untuk handle one of the drilling equipment dekat situ. Ok kalau cerita pun kamu mungkin tak faham tapi kalau ada drillers lain yang baca post ni, I got the chance to be a driller yo! Saya dapat peluang guna cyberchair tu dan move the top drive up and down. Tapi takdela sampai tahap pick up drill pipe ke apa. And it's just me yang dapat that opportunity. Syukur Alhamdulillah lagi sekali!

Tapi kegembiraan ku hanya seketika (cewahh). Elok dah bersiap sedia untuk berjuang pada hari ketiga, saye kena anta balik darat pulak. Sebabnya bedspace penuh. Rig ni dah cukup besau boleh accommodate up to 180 ppl pun penuh jugak! Saye pun tak pasti la ada sape yang dibela di atas rig tu. Yang pasti ada 2 orang jejaka dari kerajaan Mauritania yang kerjanya adalah makan sampai penat dan tido sampai lapar. So diorang aje dah take 2 beds. Huhu kutuk baikk punye eh? :P

So ni lah akibatnya bila tak berada di atas rig. Hari-hari datang office buat apa-apa yang patut. Usually pagi2 ada banyak operations meeting. So dalam pukul 11 camtu baru start buat keja dan buat-buat berkerja. Dan most of the time jadi penunggu FB.. hahaha.. sungguh tragis la kehidupan saya dua tiga hari ni.. Apa pun, emosi saye sungguh stabil. Rasanya terlebih stabil sampaikan saya mampu buat satu post sebegini rupa. Tak penah kot? Takpe.. good start kan. Slalu serious ajo.. Saye ada lagi 5 hari untuk berhappy-happy berhuha-huha di office ni. Sabtu ni (25th Sept) insyaAllah turn saya pulak naik rig dan mula berkerja 2 minggu offshore, 2 minggu onshore sampai habis project. Kalau dekat atas rig tu, suram la sikit blog ni rasanya.

Ok. Selamat meneruskan minggu ini dengan kerja-kerja yang berfaedah ya. Ramai yang complaint pasal start berkerja hari ni eh? Tu la, lain kali jangan cuti raya lama-lama. Nak lagi best, jangan cuti raya langsung macam saya ni! hehe.. Til we meet again peeps~

Saye rasa ni lah gambar saya yang paling tercantik sekali.. haha. Rambut dah panjang and dah serabut.. Tak tau la kat mana nak trim rambut nanti.. Mesti jadi macam orang Africa.. hehe

*cheers*

Las Palmas de Gran Canaria

2010-09-14T01:02:00.004+08:00

Hola! Como estas? Hehe poyo jap. Well peeps, I’ve just got back from an extremely pleasant Aidil Fitri weekend getaway in Spain. As the title goes, myself together with a few colleagues went to the Las Palmas de Gran Canaria. It’s one of the Canary Islands located not far from West Africa. It belongs to Spain though it’s far away from its mainland. Another famous island is the Tenerife, in case you have not heard of Las Palmas before.

We took the Mauritania Airways, which I would describe as the worst airline services I’ve ever board. Well, there’s nothing much that we can expect from this country anyway. Our flight was scheduled to depart on the eve of Eid, at 1900 hours but when we went to the airport, we were informed to come back 2 hours later due to flight delay. Our logistic coordinator on the other hand, told a different story about this airline. He suspected that the flight was overbooked and they were trying to push passengers out of the flight. Sounds ridiculous to me but it had happened before. Nevertheless, we managed to board the flight at the very last minute due to miscommunication with our logistic rep.

Ok cakap melayu takut ada orang baca post ni nanti. Negara ni majority penduduknya orang Arab dan jugak African. Mostly semua orang tau perangai dua bangsa ni adalah kasar and tak peduli kan orang. So masa dekat atas plane, diorang ni belasah je ambil seat orang lain walaupun its numbered seating. Bila suruh diorang pindah, mula la nak melenting. Yang lagi pelik, cabin size luggage tu boleh pulak dia letak depan seat je and the overhead compartment tu tak full langsung. It’s a big luggage and to me it’s a hazard, especially during emergency. Cabin crew pulak memang muka masam habis, tak senyum, takde perasaan. Mungkin dia pun dah faham perangai kaum2 dia gamaknya so dia buat bodoh je. Then elok je take off, belum sempat plane tu stabil diorang dah bangun berjalan sana sini. Steward pulak kena datang suruh diorang duduk balik sebab seat belt sign masih switch on. And you can imagine how it went after that kan.. Masa touch down pun sama. Elok je tayar jejak tanah, kelam kabut pak2 arab/Africa ni bangun dari seat masing2. Then terus bukak overhead compartment utk keluarkan segala jenis size bag yang ada. Again, steward pun kena suruh diorang duduk balik sampai la plane completely stop. Masa tu jugak dah macam2 jenis bunyi sms and call masuk. Rasanya mungkin diorang tak switch off langsung kot hp tu. Announcement semua dalam French and Arabic so tak tau la apa instruction yang diorang bagi before take off and landing. *sigh

After 3 hours flight, we safely arrived Aeropuerto de Gran Canaria. A bit funny when most of us get our tongue twisted between French and Spanish. I find it easier to learn Spanish compared to French. Til now I don’t really know how to speak proper French. Ni semua gara-gara influence Telenovela! Should have Telenovela in French la kot.. hehe. Anyway, there’s a family who went with us for the trip and once we arrived, they noticed that the baby’s stroller was missing. They passed to the cabin crew before they boarded and it is nowhere to be found. It could probably be at Nouakchott airport or the Nouadibhou Airport where we had a transit stop there. We then found out that the stroller is considered as hand carried item and we are supposed to store it in the overhead compartment. Pelik kan?

On our first day, we went down south of the island to Puerto de Mogan. We had 2 hours bus ride to get there and had very breathtaking scenery throughout the journey. The ride was an extreme and thrill one coz we went uphill. Salute to the driver coz he didn't seem to brake much during the ride and their buses are superb, as if we're riding a 4WD! Anyway, my favorite place is the Puerto Rico (not the one in Venezuela ye). The view is just splendid and I can’t simply put it in words! I have a little wish to go back there for honeymoon trip, boleh? Hehe. Main activity at Mogan was shopping and sight seeing. On Friday, they have a very large flea market where they sell souvenirs and other items. One of the main attractions is the tablecloth/table runner and they are pretty cheap too. Another attraction here is the submarine tour, where we can actually have a ride in the submarine! No, we didn’t manage to get into the submarine as the ticket was fully booked and we had to wait for about 1 hour to get on the next ride.

On the second day, we took the open top bus tour to go to several places in Las Palmas. We managed to go to the Columbus House, where Christopher Columbus made a stop during his sailing trip. It’s now turned to a gallery and also serves as a library to the locals. The bus tour also serves as our main transportation to go around the city for our shopping spree. Things are incredibly cheap there especially Zara, since its origin country is Spain. I bought quite few clothes for myself and for my family as souvenirs. Korang penah ke beli jeans berharga 3 euro = RM12??? Haha, den dah ponah dah.. 2 helai lagi tau!! Pencapaian yang sangat dibanggakan!

Not much of information to share coz the rest of the day was mainly filled with shopping. I’m still suffering from foot cramps due to excessive shopping. Haha. But I really had fun in Las Palmas. It’s the most beautiful place I’ve ever been so far.. kalah Edinburgh ok! Hari ni agak kurang idea and mood menulis.. Mood swing datang lagi.. Pics will be uploaded in FB soon….

*cheers*

Raya di perantauan

2010-09-09T17:10:00.006+08:00

Entry ni berbaur sedih.. macam2 emosi bergolak dalam hati skarang ni. hehe. Awal2 dulu masa dapat tau kena raya kat sini (Mauritania), ada jugak yang ckp "eh nanti raya camne? kesiannye.." tak kurang jugak yang cakap "abisla you, raya nanti nangis2 tak berlagu la.."

Reaction aku? Kepada sesapa yang ucap ayat pertama, aku ckp "takpe, saya dah redha ni.. hati kering dah" and reaction dekat UCAPAN kedua, "takde maknanya" sambil blah dengan muka mcm nak tumbuk je si pengucapnye tu.. Ade ke pulak patut cakap camtu kan? Nyakitkan hati je..huh.

Anyway, ada sebab nape aku cakap aku REDHA and HATI KERING. To those yang tau kisah aku before this, you will understand me for saying it out loud. To those yang tak tau, mungkin korang akan rasa "ceh belagak, tunggu la malam raya ni sure nangis punye". Well I don't blame you for having that "thought".. Bunyi memang agak arrogant.. Mana la ade manusia tak nangis kalau raya SORANG2 jauh dari family? Nak lagi best kalau kena raya atas rig, masa tengah drilling.. huhu.. Tapi, tah. Masa tu pikir redha je dengan semua yang dah tertulis utk life aku. So here I am, ABOUT to celebrate Aidil Fitri nun jauh di perantauan.

Tak, tak jadi raya dekat atas rig. Kalau raya atas rig, maknanya tak raya langsung lah. I'm pretty sure I'll be the only Muslim dekat atas rig tu. So far tengok crew mostly Danish dengan Philippines. Have not heard about local crew. And confirm I'm the only lady onboard the rig. *limelight on me please* haha. Oh sedikit info pasal penentuan tarikh puasa dan raya di Mauritania ni. Diorang guna naked eyes untuk skodeng anak bulan, n0 binocular is allowed sebab katanya tak accurate atau kurang tepat untuk penentuan. Mazhab sini Hanafi ke Hambali tah, lupa pulak so diorang pun skodeng la sampai nampak. Kalau tak nampak jugak sampai midnite, baru diorang declare. Sama la keadaannya masa nak puasa dulu. Tengah malam baru tau puasa ke tidak. So semalam semua orang pun tunggu la sampai tengah malam. Tapi aku separuh jalan je terus kiok. Pagi tadi blur2 raya ke tidak. Funny eh? hehe.

Malam ni (now kul 10.40am), aku akan terbang ke Las Palmas, Spain dengan budak2 office Melayu yang lain. Diorang actually dah plan lama dah untuk celebrate Aidil Fitri kat sana. Mostly celebrate dengan sight seeing and shopping lah. Sana barang murah. Sini benda ada yang murah and ada jugak yang ridiculously expensive. Aku pulak just nak isi masa lapang je, daripada raya sorang2 dekat mansion aku tu, baiklah expand lagi Eurotrip ni kan. Google Las Palmas pun nampak cantik semacam je.. Huuu can't wait!!

Emosi kat sini memang macam bad weather. Kejap ok, kejap k.o. Semalam ternangis for the first time lah sepanjang 10 hari aku bermusafir di Mauritania ni. Semuanya disebabkan satu entry dekat FB. Well, memang la ada kawan2 yang nak bergurau senda dengan aku dengan lawak2 "takleh makan ketupat,nyam nyam nyamm" tapi ntah kali ni gurauan tu semacam sangat pedih je. Yela, this is my very FIRST time beraya tanpa family, kalau tanpa suami tu dah memang tak penah lah.. hahaha (ok sewel kejap). Aku ni dahlah anak manja, and lately jadi sangatlah fragile. Sikit2 nangis je keje.. huhu. Dah makin tua ni, makin bebudak lak perangai aku.. Haih...

26 tahun raya dengan family, penah sekali je tak raya Aidil ADHA dengan family. Tu masa study dekat UTP dulu. Ntah nape tak balik, probably cuti mid week kot. Tu pun aku nangis meraung jugak tak dapat balik. For those yang kurang tahu, Perlis sambut Aidil Adha sama meriah macam Aidil Fitri. Sebab tu la terasa sangat bila tak balik. Tapi tak balik Aidil Fitri ni lagi menyedihkan lah.. Terbayang2 aje umah baru mak tu dengan riuh rendah adik beradik yang lain. Ni la first time nak beraya di rumah baru mak. Combo pulak tahun ni, Aidil Fitri & Aidil Adha. Tapi apa nak buat. Adala hikmah yang lebih baik utk aku kot lepas ni? InsyaAllah.....

Anyway, to everyone yang sudi baca blog ni, selamat menyambut hari raya Aidil Fitri. Appreciate your family and have a wonderful celebrations. Mohon maaf atas semua yang dah dicakapkan, especially lately ni emosi memang sangat2 macam volcano. Yang buruk tu sesungguhnya memang datang dari aku. Tataplah gambar aku dekat yard ni ha.. haha.. Puasa2 pegi turun yard yang sungguh panas terik tu memang sangat2 mencabar. Hampir2 je nak terpecah puasa sebab dehydrated gile2.. huhu.. Syukur, berjaya tamatkan dugaan Ramadhan dengan jayanya! Eh, jaya ke? Emosi asyik marah orang tu tak berjaya.. =(

*cheers*

Mauritanie

2010-09-07T00:22:00.009+08:00

As some may have known, I’m currently on overseas assignment. It’s my first overseas assignment and guess how fortunate I am to be located in the Africa?! I’m currently in Mauritania, West Africa. Yeah, you would probably have not heard of Mauritania, just like me when I was first assigned to this project. I had to check on the globe to see where this place is. As stated, it’s on the west side and down south is Senegal while up north is the Western Sahara. I have never been to any African country before this, so I was living with imaginations based on other people’s words. They have been telling me that this place is way uncivilized and its kind of like 40 years behind Malaysia, no shopping mall, bowling alley, karaoke etc...

When I first landed in Mauritania, I had to walk out of the plane, just like the LCCT airport. The airport is small, like a small city’s airport Alor Star kinda airport. The immigration was a bit unsystematic. Lucky for us, we have our own dedicated airport staff who works there to take us through the immigration. First thing I noticed, this country is full with flies and mosquitoes. I was pretty sure to be infected by aedes or some other kind of mosquitoes that night. Haha. And there were a lot of poor people waiting just outside of the airport. They beg for money with their babies in their arms, and they followed us up to the car. They really begged and knocked the car window and heck that was scary. And it didn't just happen at the airport. The beggars are everywhere. They stood near the traffic light and beg for money from the cars that stop at the traffic light.

As for the accommodation, we have a dedicated house here. Its called PC1, PC3 and PC7. PC1 is actually a mansion with 8 big rooms. Each room is as big as a medium apartment in KL (probably 1000sq ft). And the bathroom is just as big as my room back in KL! PC1 is dedicated for my team where we are supposed to live together. However, there are some other guys from KL came down to Mauritania so they took up my room. So I have been placed in PC7 together with a housemate, Intan. PC7 has 4 mini houses, and each house has 2 rooms.

View at PC1. If you can notice that is just 1/3 of the house. And it has big compound for us to hold any event. In this pic, we had Iftar with the Orphans here in Mauritania.

My room sweet room at PC7. Love the blanket!

The master bedroom is spacious, with tv and bathtub and the second room is just nice for me. Though I don’t have a tv inside my room and no bathtub, I think that’s way better than living in a very big room in PC1, all alone! There is kitchen in every house, for us to cook. We have living room with good plasma tv and comfy couch. We have a study room with the house telephone, which is dedicated for us to call our parents, loved ones etc. Each house has its own guards. They work 24 hours and they will keep us protected. We don’t do our chores here. There’s a cleaner who does our laundry, dishes and make our bed. And we have chauffeur that will take us anywhere we want. We also received a local SIM card and the company takes care of the bill. *bliss*

It’s pretty lavish to live here actually. We have no reason not to perform our task throughout this assignment period. All that is lack here is a cook. Well, that’s not really a big deal since majority of the restaurants here serve halal food. Most of the restaurants serve French cuisines, western food. I’ve been to one restaurant that serves fried rice, close to our local fried race except it costs RM24. They all use basmati here so it’s really healthy and filling! Rice is expensive, around RM20 per 5kg sack. The rest of the food are just similar to the price in KL, perhaps cheaper coz meat are very cheap.

Based on words, this country is starting to develop now, where they have more traffic lights system and they clean up the garbage on the roadsides. I can pretty much imagine of the condition here in the last 2 years. This country has NO drainage system at all. It doesn’t rain that much, and the average for the rain is 4 times a year. But since I arrived, it’s been raining every night for the past 3 nights. And since there is no drainage system, most of the places here are flooded with rain and mud. It’s not really good scenery and it stinks. It makes it even sad to see the local houses are flooded with mud.

On the left is our house. And seeing them living in stinky mud is just heartbreaking..

Inflation rates are very high coz this country does not generate their own income. They have mining industries somewhere up north in Nouadibhou, and they import other things into the country. They have started to have their own water pipeline and that is expected to ease the inflation rates. Water is a major problem in any African country. We are not allowed to drink or cook using their tap water. We must use the mineral water supplied by the company. The water that we use for bathing smells but luckily it is still colorless. I’m starting to have zits on my face and body now, as expected.

Security is the biggest threat for us here, especially the Americans and French. I will have a separate post for security. Nevertheless, we are very much protected here as long as we stick to the company’s rules and regulations. We have a dedicated driver and a dedicated guard to protect us at all time. Bodyguard je belum ada :p

Guess that is just nice for a new post. I have more updates to share. Put up with me folks…

*cheers*

Bonjour

2010-09-02T23:29:00.004+08:00

Phew. What a long deep silence for this blog. A lot of things, unforeseen, unfortunate events occurred to me. But hey, what doesn’t kill you makes you stronger aite? That’s why I am still alive! AND, a lot of new experiences gained too. Life is just wonderful to have sad and good things happening all at once. At least the latter helps to mend broken hearts. As for me, I’ve got another opportunity to visit another country! Wow, this year really is a travelling year for me. PAID VACATION!

I had a 10 hours stop in Paris, France. I was on my way from KL to Mauritania and there are only 2 routes to get there. 1st is thru Paris and the second is thru Dubai. Would probably try the second route next time! It was a short stop but it was good enough for me as I got to finally see the Eiffel Tower (or Tour Eiffel as they called). We landed in Charles de Gaulle Airport early in the morning and since it’s a long transit stop, we are entitled for a room. So I and another 2 colleagues went to check in at Sheraton Hotel. The rate was 220 Euro for a twin sharing room. Yeah, I shared my room with Sam (a Chinese guy) since we were only using it to put our hand carried items and to have showers. *Jimat duit untuk company ok?* lol

We then took the train down to Paris. We made our stop at the Saint Michele station as it is where the Notre Dame is located. We had our first historical visit in Paris by walking around the Notre Dame area. No, we didn’t go inside coz the queue was quite long and I don’t think I have any business to do inside the church anyway. Enough of sightseeing and we had our breakfast at the local coffee shop. A hot cup of coffee and a fresh soft croissant in the cold breezy Paris was just pleasant. Oh, the weather was somewhere close to 10 deg C on that day and silly me, I forgot to check the weather forecast and ended up having just my normal sweater. The wind was strong and it was really cold! Note to self, though it’s still summer (end of summer actually), never expect every country to have the same weather like London!

Since the most attraction of Paris is to visit the Eiffel Tower, we decided to take the open tour which is similar to our KL Hop On Hop Off bus tour. The price for a day ticket is 29 Euro! And we only managed to take 1 route that took almost 2 ½ hours! What a waste of money. Note to travelers, you really need at least a day to complete the tour. And the route that we took was mainly for the Paris Grand Tour, where it took us to Paris’ main attraction, the Notre Dame, Eiffel Tower, Musee du Louvre (The Pyramid), Printemps and many more. There are few other routes that will take travelers to other places including the Hard Rock Café which I didn’t have time to go! I’ll drop by again one day for this one.

I must be frank that I’m not a big fan of history. Hey I don’t even know that the La Pyramide was THE pyramid in the Da Vincci Code, at least not until my friend commented on the picture I posted in my facebook. Haha. Yes, I’m very bad in history and I just don’t have the adrenaline for it. They have explanation on each place in English but on that day itself, I was feeling really drowsy as I had minor cold that morning. I was just thinking of taking a picture in front of Eiffel Tower and that’s it. That remarks my footprints in Paris! *teruk betul budak ni kan? ;p*

We passed through the Lafayette, the ever famous shopping mall! But no, I didn’t do any shopping this time. I wasn’t even thinking of anything to buy. Miracle isn’t it? My mind was just not focusing on the place where I was standing at. I was thinking more of my next few months of stays in Africa. I was worried of the country’s political instability. And I think I’ve been spending a lot for my preparation that I don’t even have any feelings for anything left.

Anyway, it was a good experience for me again and another country visited. I’ve expanded my Eurotrip! Since I’m currently located not so far from Europe, I will plan for more Eurotrip, to Spain or Italy perhaps. And I do wish to go back to Copenhagen and see it from a different view. Note to sis Adie! ;p

*cheers*

Dark and Twisted

2010-05-20T13:55:00.000+08:00

Pelik. A very strange feeling. Sangat tak sedap hati. Why? What? Who? Crap! Can't continue having this feelings. Its killing me. Can't focus on the training. Absorption rate is way below the line. It can kill my career.

Fatigue. Sleepless nights. Weight loss despite having good appetite. They all lead to THAT thing. I don't want that now. Urgh! Another hyper-thingy sickness. Benci.

My Volcanic Journal - London

2010-04-30T01:33:00.002+08:00

When I first received my travel itinerary, I noted that I will be going back via London. LONDON! That strikes me an idea instantly! It was never in my plan to go to London this year, though I’ve always wanted to leave my footprints there. The closest that I’ve been to in that continent is Denmark, a bit of Germany and a bit of Sweden. I feel like expanding my Euro Trip this time and I asked for permission from my team leader to have an extended transit in London. It was approved at first but it got denied by the GM’s secretary since they do not support any “diversion” in business traveling. I totally understood and agreed with the business policy and informed my team leader accordingly. To my surprise, he personally went to see the GM *well he’s kinda close with the GM anyway* and GM granted my wish to go to London!! Weehooo~~

So I made the changes and informed my sister’s friend that I will be going there and have 2 nights stay at their crib. Luckily I’m kinda close with all my sister’s friends and that saved me a lot on accommodation! *and they are scattered all over the places, you name it!!* Anyway, to continue from previous post…

On Saturday, we continued our journey to London via train and we went straight to Heathrow Airport to manage our flights back to KL.

Few facts that you have to know about our beloved MALAYSIAN HOSPITALITY airlines:

When we knew about the cancellation of our flights, we were not informed or booked for the next available flight automatically.
We have to call MAS reservation line to book for our flights again.
We were advised to call the country office (London) to get it sorted out but it was to no avail.
The London office was CLOSED on weekends, regardless of the emergency situation that we were facing at that time!
We then went to Heathrow with the hope that we can communicate directly with MAS Staff at the airport. Guess what? There was NO MAS staff stationed at the airport from Saturday until Tuesday! *not sure of Friday coz we were not there but I think they didn’t have any support staff there on Friday either*
We met the Heathrow staff who was taking care of the MAS counter. He obviously could not do anything except giving out numbers for us to call.
We had to call KLIA office and were put on the line for more than 30 minutes. I started to queue at no 27, and took almost an hour to get to number 6 before the line dropped!
I called them again and started back at no 26!! Bongok la kan!
When I managed to talk to the MAS staff @ KLIA office, I was told not to call the London office since all reservations were done in KLIA office. So okay, I managed to confirm our seats on the next available flight, which was scheduled on Wednesday. Note: my phone bill at the moment has exceeded RM1000 ya!! sheeeshhh
On Monday, we received an SMS from MAS informing that our flight to KL on Wednesday has been canceled. And then, we all went back to square one again to get another seat for the next available flight. For us traveling in business class, the next available seat they can offer was the following Monday! Holy smoke! Apa nak buat di London lama2?
So on Wednesday we went to the MAS counter at Heathrow again, that is when the NATS agreed to lift the restriction to fly through European airspace.
As expected, the airport was swamped with stranded travelers, queuing as long as it takes to get out of UK, including us. We queued for more than 2 hours before we can speak to the Heathrow staff. Heathrow staff! Not MAS staff!!
The Heathrow staff briefed us that she can only take our reservation number and contact details and she will pass it to the London office for the flight arrangement. AND she also informed us that the KLIA office number is NOT usable and we SHOULD HAVE contacted the London office instead! WTF?
I could see my boss lost his patience at that point of time. We were told to call this and that number but none was usable and helpful. It was very disappointing at that time to see our own airlines failed to handle such chaos.
After being forced by the crowd, or shall I rephrase… After being scolded by the tired stranded travelers, the MAS staffs finally showed up! Together with its Country Manager, who looked totally blur and acted like nothing massive is happening!! And it’s a mat salleh btw.. what a waste of money to have that kind of person sitting for that position!
Anyway, we managed to secure our seats back to KL on Wednesday night itself, though it was only the economy seat. My big boss however was luckier to get a seat in the business class on Thursday flight, all thanks to his Gold Club member or whatever the name is.
The 11 hours journey on economy was really a painful one! I always have back problem and sitting there for hours nearly killed me! *ok saya over!* But my big boss told me there were empty seats on business during his flight!! BODOH PUNYA MAS!!!!!!!! *ha kali ni betul2 marah..selama2 kena queue apa tu berjaya sabar lagi.. cisssssssssssssssss*

Okay.. enough on rants. Let’s move on to the happiest part of all! My main mission going to London was just one.. SHOPPING!! Though it was NEVER in my plan to go to London, *let alone shopping!!*, but considering the fact that it’s kinda like one of the lifetime opportunity for me to have a PAID vacation, I spent like there’s no good malls in Malaysia!! Seriously I did not even bother to go for city tour in London! I don’t bloody care about London Bridge, or London Eye and heck, I don’t even know about Big Ben! Haha. Yeah, I hate history and geography. Period. ;p

So on Saturday my sister’s friend fetched me at the Paddington Station *oh yeah, Paddington Bears tuh mmg datang dari Paddington tuh rupanya!*. We went to the Westfield Mall for cuci mata session. Ala2 kick-start gitu kan~ and headed back to Kak Ina’s crib. The next day Kak Ina and hubby decided to bring me to the Clarks Outlet where I bought 4 pairs of shoes!! *hampir pengsan test kasut ya.. serious rambang mata!!* They then took me to the Oxford Street for the ULTIMATE shopping spree! Oh my, I almost lost my sense of logic especially when she took me to Primark. The clothes were so damn cheap BUT with good quality. I bought few pairs of dresses, mainly for work purposes. The highest amount that I paid was just 15 pound. *RM75 for a dress???? NO WAY JOSE!* see, I’m kinda screaming here! Hahaha

Anyway, the rest of the day was mainly filled with shopping. Football merchandises are crazily cheap there. Bought few Man Utd official merchandises for my darlings, cosmetics and fragrances. Oh not to forget, my brand new PINK handbag too! Haha. Since I was stranded for a couple of days more in London, I decided to have a city tour! FINALLY! Luckily I have another friend who is residing in London and she was available on Tuesday to take me out. We walked more than 10km around Central London and I got to see different side of London *other than shopping that is!* Cantik~~

All in all, I am COMPLETELY satisfied and more than happy to be stranded in London. Despite having emotional sickness during the first few days, I can conclude that it was all worth it. The experience, the knowledge, the stuffs that I bought.. and I got to meet my long lost friend too. I’m still thankful to be given this opportunity together with good health. I had nose bled throughout my 10 days stay in UK but it was nothing serious. The weather was just a bit too chilly for me.

Thanks for all the prayers during my stranded days in UK. It was not really a good moment at the beginning but to get back to my home, safe and sound is just the perfect ending for this chapter of my life. I’m happy and blessed to be given the opportunity to visit another beautiful countries. A total blessings in disguise… Mari pergi London lagi ye~~!!

*cheers*

My Volcanic Journal - Edinburgh

2010-04-26T20:15:00.002+08:00

"Athens of the North', the capital city of Scotland was more happening and lively compared to Aberdeen. The weather was pleasantly warm and the sun shined so bright that day as if it was welcoming the 4 stranded tourists to explore the town. We first went to the train station to get our ticket sorted out and confirmed our seats on the next day's train. Once done, we went to the tourist information center to get assistance on the hotel. I left it to the big boss to decide and made the bookings while I spent the few minutes at the center browsing thru the souvenirs. Oh yeah, I didn't manage to get any souvenir in Aberdeen since I couldn't find the souvenir shop. We planned to get some memorable Aberdeen's stuff at the airport, which eventually was closed due to the volcanic ash eruption. *sigh..

We checked in to the Parliament House Hotel and left our luggage at the concierge since we were early and the rooms were not ready. We decided to take a walk down to the city center and Edinburgh is just so beautiful and breathtaking. We climbed a few hills up to enjoy the excellent natural vantage points and it was just the perfect panorama for photography. I truly savor the moments I had in Edinburgh and was thankful to be given the opportunity to be stranded there, even just for a day!

We walked quite a distance, which I think we've covered 2/3 of the city by foot! From 1 castle to another that I couldn't even remember of its name. I was too occupied enjoying the breeze, the sun and taking pictures. Though I consider myself as a bad photographer, I just felt happy to be able to capture the different scenes and moments I had in my life. Oh, my team leader, which is a Trinidadian was busy instructing me to strike different pose and he was my photographer too! Seriously, the trip was not just an eye opener for me, but it was a great opportunity to build strong rapport with my bosses. I was just less than 2 weeks working for that department, FYI, when I was requested to join them for the meeting! \o/

Being in Edinburgh was never in our plan, hence I had to carefully manage my spending. The big boss wanted to visit the Edinburgh Castle, the main tourist attraction in Edinburgh. And to my surprise, he paid for my ticket and I was deeply touched and almost hugged him to say thanks? Haha. I called him daddy since that moment coz he was such a good daddy to me throughout the trip! He helped me with the luggage when we had to take the stairs, he paid for some of my meals, the entry ticket to the castle, etc. *Terharu!!! Mana nak cari boss baik camni???*

Anyhow, Edinburgh Castle was spectacular, and the view was amazingly beautiful! It actually sits on top of a volcano! The castle was huge and I didn't even manage to cover the whole castle as I was too tired to continue the climb! The castle has various magnificent panoramas in every direction of the castle. I increased my knowledge in Scots history from the short trip I had around the castle too.

A very memorable journey in Edinburgh........ =) Highly recommended!!

My Volcanic Journal - Aberdeen

2010-04-25T23:06:00.003+08:00

So I boarded the MH016 flight from KLIA to Amsterdam on Monday night. I was on a business trip to Aberdeen with my 2 bosses. We safely arrived Schipol Airport and had to check in for our connecting flight to Aberdeen. The security at Schipol was rather strict. I was asked to remove every metal on me including my belt. I witnessed a lady who was asked to take off her boots, was thoroughly checked by the security up to her breast. It looked like she was being examined for breast cancer! I salute their security system, though it could be a pain in the ass to those who were checked inside out!

I didn't have much time to shop for souvenirs at Amsterdam. We were basically there to check in to the KLM airlines and walked (almost run) to our departure gate. I remembered clearly when my sister advised me of the same situation she had when she was there, with a stroller! Journey to Aberdeen was fine. We had fresh strawberry with raspberry sauce for our breakfast. It was so fresh and tasted differently from our local strawberry. Must be the weather! ;P

We safely touched down at Aberdeen Airport on Tuesday morning and the wind was quite strong. I was in my sweater with only a layer of clothe wrapping me, so you can figure out how shivering I was at that time. I had my big bulky thick winter jacket in my luggage but I thought I was doing okay for not wearing it. We went to our hotel, which had a road construction along the street and taxis had to drop us off quite a distance from the entrance. Aberdeen is known as the Granite City, meaning it is full with granites, from the building down to their roads. Imagine I had to carry my luggage on the granite road where I had few hurdles and damn, it was difficult to walk and drag your luggage on the granites! I totally hate them! It hurts my feet...

Nevertheless, I started my journey in the Granite City later that day. It was a gloomy city. All building are made of granite and they are all in gray. The shape of the buildings are all the same and it was just not an exciting city to be at. The weather was awfully cold with temperature ranged from as low as 1 degree C to 8 degree C the highest. I was heavier by few pounds from 3 layers of clothes, gloves, hat and muffler.

We had our 2 days meeting with one of our partners there. On Thursday morning, when we were having breakfast, my boss told me the airport was closed due to volcanic ash. I thought he was joking as we were supposed to fly to London the next morning. Checked the BBC and the whole team panicked and started calling the airlines to see if we can still take the flight to London. All of us were scheduled to go to London and 2 of them were supposed to depart to KL in the afternoon. I took an extended transit in London and was scheduled to return home on Sunday night.

Later that night we were informed that our flight has been canceled and we immediately booked ourselves the first class ticket on EuroStar train to go to London. To our surprise, the train system in Europe works differently from ours. We had to purchase the ticket and make the seat reservation separately! So, we ended up having the first class standing ticket for our 7 hours journey to London! Fret not, we did not stand up that long. We temporarily took the seats that were reserved for travelers in Edinburgh and we decided to stop at Edinburgh and had a night there. We settled our ticket and managed to secure our seats to continue our journey to London the next day. The train station in both Aberdeen and Edinburgh were full with people who were trying to get themselves out from Scotland. It was chaotic and I for once felt so scared of the situation that might be worse in the next few days...

Boredom...

2010-03-29T10:24:00.000+08:00

..hits me again! I don't have any work to do, boss doesn't want to give me any task, and I'm not allowed to take annual leave either. So I'm basically blogging from the office *sambil makan gaji buta*. Oh, I've completed another wishlist, and I'm happily blogging from my bb. *not so happy, the font is damn small and I've to type really slow!*

Anyway, I'm done blog walking, news reading, e-banking, ym-ing and still waiting for Azu for gtalking. Haha. Me and Azu had so much fun last weekend and I can say I'm grateful to be invited!!

Ok, can't stand the small font anymore! Have a good, productive week people!!

*cheers*

Happenings

2010-03-18T18:03:00.004+08:00

I could barely catch up on life now. Since early this year, I had so many things going on and I don’t have much time to relax and pamper myself. 4 weekends in a month seems not appealing to me at all as most of my weekends were spent travelling or entertaining guests.

Final week of February, Papa came to KL together with my stepmom and lil sister, Ellies. *yes, I have stepmom and stepdad in case you’re left behind*. They actually promised to bring Ellies to spend her December school break in KL but papa was having some health complications and couldn’t leave the town for daily check-up. Now that everything is progressing well *syukur*, they spent 4 days and 3 nights at our little crib, my room in particular.

It was our responsibility to bring Ellies to the most happening places in KL. She actually wanted to go to Sunway Lagoon but since it was during weekend, we could foresee the massive crowd there and suggested her to come again next time. Nevertheless, we had great moments and fun taking them to Curve and Aquaria. We were lucky to be given the chance to witness fish feeding session while at Aquaria. The divers were funny and surely know how to entertain kiddos. Ellies was highly influenced by her schoolmates as she kept on repeating what her friends told her to look for while in KL. *huh budak2 zaman sekarang sangat up-to-date!!*. We had a little shopping treat for her at Suria KLCC and papa was sweating with the price! How KLCC is overrated, no?

We also had sumptuous dinner at ar-Rawsha, a must place to dine out with family. The last time I went there was after my sinus surgery and I couldn’t enjoy the food so much as the throat was not fully healed. I took full opportunity this time to enjoy the food and the kebab *was it humus?* was simply spectacular!! Yes, I’m a foodie but that didn’t help me to gain any extra pounds!! Shheeeessshh.

We bad farewell and I joined them to KLIA to catch my flight to Kuantan for offshore assignment. Since I’m moving out of the department *??*, it is my responsibility to ensure the one replacing me is fully equipped with necessary knowledge and experience to shoulder my tasks. So I took her to 2 rigs, a tender barge and a jack-up. It was my first time going offshore to visit these 2 types of rigs as well *I’ve been to a mat-type jack-up, not the IC type one*. I’ve been on a tender that was on dry-docked and the experience of sleeping on an operating barge is totally new to me. Though the weather was pleasantly calm, I still had a slight nausea! *lekeh la engineer sorang ni. No more iron lady!*. Anyway, I’m not gonna elaborate much on my experience this time since I don’t think much of you will find it amusing *boring wei dok kat laut*.

I managed to spend only 1 Sunday at home but I snuggled myself half of the day on my comfy bed *cover tido*. I didn’t even have the chance to clean my room and it’s a full catastrophe! I’m now flying to Miri *bosan takdak keja so menaip atas flight*, and will only be back by Friday. Mom will be arriving on Thursday and I need to warn her of the condition of the room so that she won’t have heart attack or something serious to her health. Haha.

We will be taking mom out this weekend, and next week we’re holding a barbecue birthday party for little Sara. She’s turning 4 people! Seems like a busy weekend for me again huh? I still have another rig to visit before March ends and that would be on the final week of March! I’m in serious need of vacation. I need a good massage. I almost missed my facial appointment since I always travel but luckily my skin behaves well. My back aches as I cannot stand long hour’s journey and I think my body functions are slowly ancient-ing!! Huwaaa~

Hopefully I can relax a little bit while I’m in Miri. No, I’m not offshore; I’m attending training at Marriott Hotel. Hope they have good sauna there! I seriously need to catch up on life. I’m missing lots of juicy gossips, happy moments with friends, many many more! Can April be good to me? I will embark on a new journey in April, as my application has been approved! Where to? Still in Tower 1. But different company. *kasi gossip panas sikit. Teka lah teka…*

Some asked whether I enjoy and happy with my work *orang yang tengok aku travel sana sini pun terasa penatnya eh?*. I do. Very much. I love challenges and I keep meeting new people. That adds sweet juices to my life journey though I have to sacrifice my leisure moments. Well, we have to give out something in order to gain good things, right? But yeah, I’m a bit tired and I have my goals. I’ll stop doing all these when the right time comes. Til then, I love my job to bits!

Do you love your job? *tetiba terbuat poll*

*cheers*

p/s: post basi. lupe nak publish...

It's okay

2010-03-05T22:27:00.006+08:00

Tetiba terkenang lagu Crumbs.. It's okayyyy~~ (sambil bunyi drum dum dum dum).. Intro je dah merepek! I'm happily blogging from this rig. Yeah, finally I landed on a rig that is equipped with wireless and tv inside the room. Dalam erti kata lain, gua dapat VIP room lah tu babe. Funny thing bout this hitch, semua orang macam bersopan santun dengan kitorang. Al-maklumlah, boss besar datang turun padang. But we're here not to inspect or audit on anything. We're here to learn! Lepas dah explain, baru la masing2 tunjuk belang.... Ha ni baru la offshore life!

Anyway, a little update on the last check-up. I'm officially clear from hyperprolactinemia. Syukur. All thanks to God. The reading was extremely fine, just above the low quartile compared to the previous reading that exceeded the acceptable range. So, boleh la bunting pelamin! *woohooo* Ops, not so fast. I still have another problem. The hormones that control ovulation are not producing at the right pace (there are 2 types, cant recall the name). In other words, the 2 are supposed to be produced at the same time and be in parallel, with the same reading. But mine are going in different direction and conflicting. That translates in difficulties in ovulating, hence susah sikit la mau bunting pelamin since tak boleh agak bila ovulation takes place. Dr ckp, kalau kawin and nak terus preggie, kena usaha LEBIH la. Kuang kuangggg

But not to worry, I'm on medication now to keep the hormone back to normal trend. Hopefully I could see good results in the next 2 months! *amik darah lagi...*

Anyway, I'll be flying out to daratan tomorrow. Be going to Miri on Monday and back in KL next weekend. Mom will be coming to KL next week as well. I'm going for another hitch in 4th week. Sheesh, there goes my March!!

Be good people.

Salam perantauan dari offshore.. Ceh poyo. Nampak mcm gangster kampung ade lah.. Yang tiang2 tuh conductor. Dlm erti kata lain, producing well. Oil ke gas tah. lupa den..

*cheers*

Hyperprolactinemia

2010-02-19T22:30:00.003+08:00

Dah seminggu headache ni tak hilang2. Sampai kena apply cuti untuk tido aje. Panadol? Langsung tak jalan. Walaupun aku jenis yang tak makan panadol, so effect dia sepatutnya sangat power rangers la kan. Tapi headache ni sungguh melampau sakitnye. Hmmmppppphhh!

Kenapa teruk sangat headache? Mungkin banyak sangat caffeine dalam badan. Balik Kangar asyik togok coke je. Kangar pulak super panas sekarang. Dry season dah kick in. Mak dengan bangganya tak nak pasang aircond dekat bilik baru anak-anak. Mak kata sape nak sila hulur ongkosnya~ Huh, lambat lagi la tu kan. Tido bilik mak je lah jawabnya... hehe

Mungkin jugak ni side effect penyakit terbaru aku ni. Ha... mari gemparkan seluruh dunia. Takdelah sakit kronik apa pun. Hyperprolactin. Sejenis penyakit hormone imbalance. Hormon prolactin ni semua manusia ada, dan dia akan active (untuk wanita lah) bila pregnant! Aku pregnant? Ya ampun~

Ceritanya, 6 bulan lepas pegi jumpa gynecologist sebab period cycle haywire. Tanak take things for granted lah kan, sebab ada case orang kena cyst dan jugak ovarian cancer detect dari period cycle tak tetap nih. Alang-alang jumpa gyne, buat lah fertility test. Nak jugak tahu, kalau dah kawin nanti boleh bunting pelamin ke? *hah gatalnye!* Ops, jangan pandang serong ye. Ramai yang beranggapan buat fertility test masa tengah bujang ni takde faedah. Anda salah ye. Tengok akhirnya saya tahu apa masalah saya....

Ok, from the blood test, dapat lah reading segala mak nenek hormone dalam badan. Confirm la hormone2 yang berkaitan dengan pregnancy-estrogen itu di paras normal *duh!*. Tup2, prolactin pulak menonjolkan diri. Terlebih paras yang normal. Dr pun ceritalah apa itu prolactin. Soalan dia "ada milk secretion tak?"

Aku? Terkejut tu dah la kan. Termalu pun ada. Of course la takde kan doctor. Kalau ada, tak payah saya susah-susah compare harga fresh milk antara Tesco dan Giant tiap2 minggu. hahaha. Rupanya prolactin nih akan active bila pregnant. Dia berkuasa dalam pengeluaran susu ibu ni. Ohhh padanla soalan tu. Doctor ni mengejutkan saya je.

Dr pun refer ke pakar yang sepatutnya, pakar hormone. 6 bulan jugak baru aku pegi jumpa pakar tu. Biasalah, ratu procrastinate. Balik google2, tak berapa nak faham so buat tak reti je. Tapi yang aku nampak adalah perkataan TUMOR! Hah kau. Tekejut bapak beruk dah ni. Then slowly baca balik, ohhh benda tu memang namanya pituitary tumor. Dia tidak sepatutnya active tapi dia boring gamaknya kan... Hikss..

Then tengok colleague pun kena nasib yang sama. Lagi kesian, trying to conceive punya lama tapi tak berjaya akibat cik prolactin nih la. Dia menghalang fertility tau. Tak boleh bunting pelamin la aku kalau tak treat benda ni kan.. hehe gatal lagi. *beria nye nak bunting pelamin, calon nya mana wei??!*

Anyway, setelah diberi kesedaran oleh colleague ni, aku pun pergi la jumpa pakar endocrinology kat Prince Court semalam. Asyik ulang alik Prince Court je aku kan. Sinus dah okay, ni endo pulak. Dr Faridah yang attend, sangatlah sweet and nice person. Since reading prolactin tu dah 6 bulan lepas, dah nak basi pun, so Dr nak amik reading baru. Dah expected pun. Boleh pulak vain aku main acilut dengan dr tu. Yang Dr dah cocok jarum kat lengan aku, skali vain tu lari pulak. Sakit mak ngah~

So kesimpulannya, takde apa2 perkembangan lah. Next week baru next appointment utk tau reading dia berapa. Misalan kata sudah reduce ke normal level, boleh la balik riang gumbira *dan bunting pelamin!*. Tapi andaikata reading tu masih di paras bahaya *eh taklah bahaya mana pun..saja over* kena la buat treatment seterusnya. Next step, MRI untuk locate cik tumor ni dan check size dia. Sebab dia active kan so dia membesar dengan sihatnya la dalam otak saya ni. Lepas tu, start la treatment nye. On medication je. Kalau dia degil tak reti2 nak surut, baru la pergi operation. Tapi tak mungkin kot? Jangan degil2 la cik tumor. Tak suka lah kena GA *general anesthetic* lagi...

Sekarang hanya duduk di rumah layan kepala yang berat mengalahkan batu. Effect dia jugak la migraine bagai nih. Kena pantang cokelat, caffeine dan jugak citrus-ish untuk kurangkan sakit kapla nih. Akhirnya kena jugak cerita dekat boss *dah nampak cam menagih simpati kann* sebab dah tak tertahan sakitnya dekat office tu. Terpaksa amik cuti untuk tido aje sebab migraine ni tak hilang-hilang. Nak tau lebih lanjut kisah cik prolactin? Sila google hyperprolactin =)

Malas nak tempek sini. semak je hahahaa.. Baiklah, kepada yang terkena tempias aku mengamuk semalam, mintak mahap la ye. Mungkin ada yang seronok tengok aku tengah kesakitan ni, lantak la kan. Tapi to find pleasure in other people's pain is just unacceptable to me. Wait til I laugh really hard on your pain and you'll know how I feel. I know you're just joking but joke is totally not cool for people having headaches! FYI.

Alangkah syoknya kalau ada orang tolong urutkan kepala eh....

*cheers*

Double Celebration

2010-02-17T16:19:00.010+08:00

The long weekend is about to end. I took only 1 day off, which is the in lieu (replacement leave when someone has to work over the weekend). Yes, I did work over the weekend when I had to travel to Labuan on Friday and had an inspection carried out on Saturday. *apa nak buat, operation tak kira hari daaa*

Anyway, me and sis went back to Perlis on Friday night. We both have had nightmares traveling up north during Chinese New Year break so we carefully planned our journey and we decided to travel on Friday night. Initial plan was to go back with only 1 car but then my cousins wanted to tag along. And at the very last moment, Azu told me she was unable to get herself a flight ticket back to our hometown. So I drove my kodok, fetch Azu and later picked up my 2 handsome cousins and off we went back to Perlis.

Azu slept all the way while I was mandur-ing my cousin's driving skills from behind. *jenis tak yakin orang lain drive. hehe* We started our journey from Sg Buloh around 9pm and safely arrived at mom's crib around 4am. We had few pit stops to stretch our legs and of course, bought some food *semua kaki makan*.Managed to catch up on a few things with my dearie Azu but the time was soooo limited. I felt like I was competing with her on whose stories to be shared first! *hah teruk saya nih!* Maaf lah azu, nanti aku spend the whole day with you alone! Sent Azu back to her house the next morning and rushed back to mak's new house. Gotong-royong for the next day's kenduri.

In the evening, me and sis went to our dad's house for a little CNY treat. We decided to have our little family gathering at Putra Brasmana Hotel, located in Kuala Perlis. We had steamboat, and some other cuisines while enjoying the breeze, windy night. We all dressed up in beautiful cheongsam which I bought in Vietnam, and Papa was extremely happy to reunite with us that night. Little that I know, Chinese are happier to celebrate CNY, no matter how long they've converted to other religion. And my angpow was double than duit raya too!! *hah, kalau tau ni dah lama kot celebrate CNY tiap2 tahun!!!*

Left: nampak seperti bergamba dgn sugar daddy pulak ;p
Right: Sara was hyperactive. Overdose mentos je pun!

The Cheongsam Model.

Hotel yang tak best. Service laju sikit dari kura-kura. Food pun kureng~

Too bad, sis didn't get her angpow. Papa is really following the tradition where married man/woman is not eligible for angpow. In fact, they are supposed to give out angpow! *hey sis, where's my angpow la??" ;p

The Lai's.

The following day was another celebration for us. Mak's new house was fully completed and furnished and she decided to hold a mini kenduri kesyukuran a.k.a. housewarming. The new house is so gorgeous and lovely and we both know Mak is extremely happy to move to the new house. It's called the "Hysteria Lane" since we have Tok's, Mak Teh's, Pak Njang's, Mak Long's and Mak Lang's house there too. Can imagine how does Hysteria Lane works? We simply shout for every single thing/person we're looking for. *A: Sara mana? B: Umah Teh. A: SARA!! BALIK!!!!!* hehe *A is my sister lah kot? lol*

Clockwise from top: Mak's house, main hall, kitchen, tempat berkubang.. haha

We had around 100 guests came over celebrating mak's new joy. Some were a bit confused I guess, when they were asking "where's the baby?"! They must have thought my mom was holding an aqiqah instead! Luckily nobody asked "where's the groom????!!!!!" *kahkahkah* But of course, people were telling mak they will come again for the nasik minyak while looking at my smiley-poker face. *lambat lagi makcik. alamatnya tak datang la makcik ke umah mak saya lepas ni.. haha*

Pak Su & lil Chef Faris.

Chef of the day: Mak Teh.

My besties arrived around 3pm: Cik Emi, Fariza & Mirza. I enforced the dress code - baju kurung - and Mirza texted me apologizing for not being able to wear one. Its okay B, as long as you girls came!! Azu couldnt make it as she needs to attend her besties' wed in Sg Petani. Apology accepted. :P

I then followed my 3 lovely girls for a gossip session. We planned to head to the newly opened Secret Recipe but it was damn packed! All the Chinese were craving for cakes I supposed? Or perhaps they have nowhere else to go, like us! ;p We then settled ourselves at Pizza Hut, having mostly the dessert in that hot sunny day. We talked, giggled, laugh our hearts out listening to each other's stories. It was lovely indeed. :)

We then continued our gossip moments at Kuala Perlis, craving for jagung bakar! We always see it in Emi's picture whenever her abie came down to Perlis. *saat romantis melahap jagung*. A few camwhoring there *sudah semestinya kot!* and more giggles from the 4 of us. We ordered a total of 17 jagung bakar and the makcik was almost fainted with our order. *maaf la makcik, makcik punya jagunglah yang terbesar sekali* if any of you go to Perlis, please please go to Kuala Perlis for the marvelous jagung bakar ever! *sedap gila wa cakap lu. LEMAK!!!*

Fariza, Emi & Mirza

Ada orang nak buat pertunjukan vontot. muahahaa

Menikmati pandangan kilang sambil tunggu 17 ketul jagung.

Ok. Enough about jagung. We bad farewell and went back to our normal life. On Monday, my aunties were all excited for a family gathering. We went to Padang Besar, to spend more money there and then decided to have a little picnic at Gua Kelam. But the place was so packed with tourists and locals that we had to change our plan and went to Bukit Ayer for our mandi-manda session. We were not blessed with luck that day as the dry season has started. *bukit ayer takdak ayer daaaa*. But we didn't want to disappoint the kiddos so we let them have some fun in the water while the adults spoiled their diet with the pulut ayam! Another must-eat local food that is. *yummylicious!*

Padang Besar: ada berani ka??

Bukit Ayer

Sara dah ala-ala skinny dipping nih!!

So on Tuesday we made our journey back to KL. And everybody gets back to normal life routine and we're living in this hectic city again. *rindu kampungku....* No more hysteria lane for us, no more vocal testing, delicious cuisines, aunties, uncles, kiddos, etc. *tiba2 sedih? aiyak*. Nevertheless, I'm still thankful to have my wonderful colorful family around me. I'm planning to have more family gathering after this and hopefully March will be a good start!

To my darlings, thanks for coming over that day. We should hang out more and plan for a vacation too!!! Missing all of you.. *hugs&kisses*

*cheers*

So Long…

2010-02-11T10:04:00.004+08:00

..this blog was left without updates. Time really flies I would say. It’s been a month but I felt like it was only yesterday when I last posted my story here. *akhir zaman kot?*

Anyway, some heads up for this blog. I’ve completed 1 of my never-ending wishlist. I finally decided to own the Panasonic Lumix LX3, which is a compact digicam with awesome features and output like a DSLR. It took me quite a while to have a verdict. I always wanted to have my own DSLR, after been using it twice (the D40 and D90 – taklah, pinjam kawan punya je). But being lazy-fussy me, the thought of bringing the bulky box wherever I go is just not gonna happen. I will end up camwhoring with other people's camera I think.

The nature of my work also doesn’t permit me to carry that beautiful gadget around. I need to have my compact ready whenever I have inspection or during drilling operations, which means I often go to the rig, yard, warehouses, vessels, etc. where human needs to have full PPE-Personal Protective Equipment like hard hat, safety boots, coverall and safety glasses. So how can I have a full PPE for my DSLR then? *lol*

So I settled with that LX3. I have yet to explore the functionality of the camera. I’m always on the auto mode *pemalas sebenarnya*. I’m also not that artsy fartsy and I don’t really take good pictures *buta creativity*. So why waste my money on the expensive DSLR? *ayat penyedap hati sebab diri sangat tidak creative*.

Ok. Enough about camera. Next on the wishlist was to have my very own online boutique. I’ve had this dream of running my own boutique since I knew fashion. I love shopping and clothes are just simply the best goods to spend my money on. I started exploring my little entrepreneurship few years back *tak ingat actually bila mula ada spirit menjual*. When I was completing my degree, I helped my dad to sell few printers to my friends. Of course, all the money went straight into my bank account :p *rugi business papa-sorry*.

Then in my final year of study, I was hit by the reality when me and roomie (Fahimeh-I know you read my blog once in a while babe ;p) finally realized that we were about to leave the university and worst part of course, the scholarship! The lavish lifestyle that we used to have would disappear in few months time and none of us have any savings!

Just a little update on what we used to get back then: monthly scholarship of RM500, book allowance RM800 per year which I never used to buy books *pinjam buku library and make a copy je*, stationeries allowance RM150 per year, computer allowance RM3500 *mak guna beli sofa, and I got my computer FOC from papa*, and many more. On top of that, I had my monthly allowance from papa of RM300, my phone bills were paid by my mother and I have a car which I did not need to pay for the monthly installment. Spoiled? Yes I was.

The thought of not having RM800 per month really scared me to death. We agreed to have an extra income before we finish studying. We ended up selling burgers from door to door for the whole semester! *ye, saya adalah penjual burger suatu masa dahulu*. No, we didn’t cook it ourselves *boleh kena keracunan makanan pembeli-pembeli nanti*. We had an agreement with the abang burger who used to have a stall nearby our university. We got RM0.30 for each burger sold. *30 sen memang banyak la time tu. Sehari dapat la rm9 untuk makan extra sumptuous* We enjoyed the moment despite the tiring work. *Yelah, jalan naik turun tangga from door to door* “adik nak beli burger tak?”

That’s how I started doing business I guess. Though the profit is ciputly small, but I was happy of having it on my own. When I started working, I had the chance to travel to other countries. I first went to Vietnam back in 2008 for a meeting. The 2 days trip almost made me broke in an instant. The stuffs sold there were damn cheap and the quality was unquestionably good. I then bought few pairs of telekung and started to sell it to my colleagues. I made few hundred bucks out of it which was already good to me coz I can buy something else without worrying too much of over budgeting my peanut salary.

I then went there again last year with the intention of having a vacation *a paid one. Terima kasih*. But I was introduced to Tina and few other Vietnamese sellers at the Ben Thanh Market. They sell various types of kain ela – chiffon, English cotton, Japanese cotton, Vietnam Silk, etc. I bought quite a few pairs of chiffon and English cotton. Telekung was not in the list but I ended up bringing back 10 pairs of them. The response was very good that I finished selling everything in less than a week! I received good feedback from them, and some were not that good which I totally ignored. *nak murah and banyak choice, makcik boleh pergi sendiri. Sesungguhnya saya tidak langsung menghalang makcik*.

I then started planning on having my online boutique. I started taking orders for the telekung and planned for a trip to Vietnam again early this year. That was last month and explained the MIA of me from updating this blog. The 3 days trip was 100% filled with shopping. I bought lots of Vietnamese silk, chiffon, telekung, Vietnamese kids traditional clothes and many many more.

I launched *cewah mcm gempak pulak bunyi* my online store last month too. The response was not that overwhelming compared to the response from the makcik-makcik in the office. I guess online shopping needs more extravagant stuffs and of course, promotion! I was really tied up with my schedule. In January alone, I travelled more than 3 times and that simply distract me from promoting my online shop. But nevertheless, I managed to sell 80% of what I have in my store in 2 weeks. Thanks to my friends who helped me to promote my blog and of course to the buyers! Also those who supports me from far. It’s not really an easy job. It was really tiring, physically, mentally, emotionally. I may end up not having an online shop in the future. *mengalah kah?*

Tidak. I plan to have my very own shop in the future. I have a plan of renting a small shop lot for me to run my business. I get tired with 8-5 work and I think my interest in my work is slowly deteriorating. Then again, it’s just a plan. A plan that I wish I can materialize before I hit the big three 0. Pray for me people!

Oh don’t forget to visit www.niacabin.blogspot.com coz I have few items left which might catch your interest! Spread the words…………….. =)

*cheers*

Babysitting

2010-01-06T18:26:00.004+08:00

is never a bad idea! It's my second day toddlersitting Maisara and I don't find it difficult. Perhaps because we've been staying together for 4 months now and the bond is there. So, let's recap the days..

DAY 1.

My brother in law sent her to Aiman's (her cousin) house. It's her daily routine where Aiman's mommy will send the 3 of them (Aiman, Sara and Ilham) to Montessori Makan Duit (bukan nama sebenar) at 8.30am. She then was picked up by Aiman's mommy and I waited for her at the lobby at around 11am. I really looked like a bibik with my fancy pj's and muka bangun tido and of course, tak mandi. :p

Since auntie Wija was on leave too, we decided to take Sara out for a nice lunch treat. She's been asking for noodle so we settled ourselves at Ah Cheng Kopitiam at Cineleisure (ha'ah lawak skit namanya tapi food dia not bad!). Believe it or not, this young lady finished a bowl of kuey tiow soup on her own! It's an adult portion ya.. Budak ini sangat suka makan! And of course noodle soup is her favourite. I had nasik lemak ayam goreng special which was a bit bland and way incomparable with Old Town's nasik lemak.. Sangat tak boleh lawan Old Town punya ayam goreng. Wija chose nasik lemak ayam rendang which I didnt have the chance to try pun! Sebab terlalu asyik attend to Sara and Wija ate super fast sebab kebuluran. Nevermind, I will try it one day.

Sara then started to be cranky and asked us to take her home. But when I said we wanted to stroll in the mall, she immediately turned on happy faces and couldn't wait any longer! I took the chance to look for digi cam as part of my review before I complete my first wishlist and both Sara and Wija were bored in the shop. Wija then took her to the fountain area where they had a splash there! Amik kau tengah2 hari berbasahan kat situ. Wija really knows how to entertain kiddos since she herself has 2 of them. Time kasih auntie Wija!

Once I'm done with my camera review (no, belom beli. still indecisive!), we decided to go back to my crib and Wija stayed with us the whole day. Sara was excited to have guest in the house and she passed her nap time playing around with auntie Wija. She asked me to put on Dancing Queen and she performed her steps in front of auntie Wija. Little that I know auntie Wija took video of her dance! (nanti share eh wija!) I was of course busy with my camera review, fb-ing, ym-ing and other mouse clicking activities.

Around 6pm, we took her to the pool for a swimming session. Both me and Wija didn't swim so we let her play on her own with her 2 imaginary leaves friends. She was busy bathing the leaves and talking to them. Though it was a bit drizzling, Sara was clearly having fun with the leaves!! Mommy was caught in the traffic and only managed to reach home at 7pm. Me & Wija decided to have our eyebrow done at Bangsar and a nice dinner. Unfortunately, Sara wanted to tag along and threw her tantrum in the kitchen seeing us leaving. Yeah, a heart breaking moment to leave the kid behind especially when you had to close the door in front of her! Tunggu kakak besar, maksu bawak pegi Bangsar ye!!

The rest of the night was an adult session for me and Wija...

DAY 2.

Same routine in the morning. At 11pm, I went down to fetch her. The first thing she told me was "kakak nak makan outside today". Aiyak!! I told her we don't have any car and we cannot have lunch outside. She simply said "ajak la auntie kawan maksu semalam". Haha. If only auntie Wija runs her own business, boleh la ponteng kan? Huhu. I was worried at first coz she didn't want me to cook for lunch and insisted to go out. Texted mommy asking for back up plan. I then decided to let her take an early nap and we go out at 2pm to KLCC by cab, have lunch while waiting for mommy to finish her works. So I asked her to sleep but she kept saying "tak bolom ngantuk" which means "not yet sleepy". Yeah, tak bolom itu not yet ye.

Around noon, a good old friend ym-ed me asking for a quick lunch. Bagai disorong bantal time mengaruk2, I happily said yes! So I asked Sara to stay awake while I bathe (sure dia confuse maksu dia beria suruh tido then suruh stay awake pulak?!!). So, again we went to the Curve and since uncle Alaudin has a meeting at 2pm, we decided to have McD instead of noodle. Hari2 mintak noodle budak ni. It was a quick lunch but it's enough for me and Din to catch up on few things. The last time we met was 2 years back??

Nothing much happenings on day 2 since we don't have any transport. She managed to nap for a couple of hours and I fed her with the remaining fries in the evening. I can now officially end my 2 days contract with mommy to take care of her.

Oh, lupa pulak. Most important fact. Why do I have to babysit her when she has a daycare center? Yeah, inilah masalah utama dengan orang MELAYU yang berbusiness untuk DUIT sahaja. Her parents signed up at Montessori for her pre-K and followed by a daycare at the same place. However, the school decide to start the daycare next week instead of this week!! What the fffffffffffffffffff! Kalau nak buat daycare, buat betul-betul ye. Suka hati awak nak cuti sana cuti sini. Sapa yang susah? Mak bapak budak la. My BIL took 1 day off on Monday, I took 2 days off on Tues and Wedns and my sis will be off Thurs and Friday, just to take care of her. AND, there will be no daycare on next Monday either! Adoila. Apa ni. Baik hantar pegi kindie cha ya nun alip yang lagi organized, kan? Orang kaya berbusiness macam ni la. Orang yang tak kaya mcm kami ni makin kayap lah.. huhu.

Anyway, staying with her adds to another good memory to treasure. I love kids now!! And gave me a taste of parenthood? Hahaha.. Mari berangan ya............... ;p

We didn't snap any picture so ni adalah picture few months ago. She looks soooo naughty huh?

*cheers*

Jisim

2010-01-05T23:24:00.008+08:00

berkurangan mendadak!! *stress*

I'm not only underweight now but I'm so skinny and rasa mcm skeleton gile! *double stress*

Since break up dulu, drop from 46kg to 44kg. Time kasih pada air mata yang berjurai2 itu.

Since puasa, drop from 44kg to 42kg. This is so expected everytime Ramadhan. Confirm hilang 2kg yang kononnya AIR but after melantak time raya pun tak naik2.

Since surgery, drop merudum from 42kg to 39kg!!! *nak meraung kuat2!* Padahnya operate tonsil sekali dengan sinus nih. Terus on cold fluid diet and walaupun dah boleh melantak gila2 sekarang masih di angka yang sama (ke weighing scale tuh rosak?haha!)

Back in UTP, berat paling hebat pun memang 39kg. And I always said to people "aku kena badi nombor kereta ni". Yea, no kenderaan saya RC 39 so ala2 kena badi 39 tu la. Bila dah move to 40kg memang dah stay above that line. But now dah fall back to that number. Aiyoh.

Makan memang dah banyak sekarang. Apatah lagi bila berkecimpung dengan kehidupan Wija yang suka makan hebat2 & sedap2 nih. Tapi tetaplah tak berubah scale tuh...

Supplement? Pagi ambil colostrum milk (proven dlm membantu percepatkan healing process utk surgery ni ye!!) then malam ambil balik weight gain yang dah lama tertinggal. Yea, up to that point sebab sangat desperate nak balik body asal. =(

Saya sudah tidak ada liuk lentok ukuran badan. Sungguh kurang menyelerakan! haha. Pergi kerja pun pakai baju kurung sebab seluar semua sangat longgar and pakai belt sangatlah buruk! Orang lain complaint pakai baju kurung sebab seluar ketat tapi saya? *sedihnye!!!*

"Doakanlah supaya saya cepat naik badan. And bersyukurlah anda "sihat". Kurus keding macam saya ni horrible!" kata Cik skeleton

*cheers*

Judge

2010-01-04T22:33:00.007+08:00

A heavy topic. I’m not so sure how am I supposed to write this but I truly hope I will be able to convey the “right” message by end of this note. Obviously hot issue is so not my cup of tea. I don’t read much, nor do I have a bright thinking and good brain to write good stories. But I have had quite a handful life experience that I think some of my friend don’t, or yet to have it coming.

Do you judge? And why do you judge? How do you perceive me from my behavior and lifestyle? Not that I care much but sometimes it really makes me sick when people simply judge and act against me. I do judge sometimes but I reserve it to myself only, as I know I might be wrong in my evaluation.

I’ve had 2 chapters in 2009 that I will remember forever, on top of many other hate books I had in previous years. When I was in depressed mode, I tried to talk things through and get advices from my girl friends. Note that I don’t have a dedicated bestfriend or BFF thingy coz people don’t like me to be their BFFs? (Haha loser!) So I just have a few friends whom I consider close to me and I believe they know me inside out, or at least partially.

We can only think and say so much about a person but as a considerate human being, I don’t think I have the right to judge a person just because I heard people badmouthed her. I’m fully aware of what people think about me. Bossy, bitchy, emotional, and all the bad traits that you can imagine. I agree with emotional, but when it comes to bossy I was quite taken aback with the statement. I was once labeled bossy by a friend whom I never worked with. I threw the question “please tell me when was the last time we had anything to do together and how bossy I was to you or any other person? Can you please help me to recall coz I have a very weak memory”.

Her answer? “No, we never had anything formal done in the past but that’s what I HEARD people said about you.” She then said she and her girlfriends used to hate me before this but since I’ve changed, they decided to accept me back into their so called clan.

F.U! Okay, this is a bit too detail but I seriously HATE this lady so much that I don’t even think I want to be her friend again. I had NEVER been in their clan before this coz I’m a lone ranger (yeah call me a loner I don’t care) and I have NEVER applied to be part of YOUR so called clan again. Sorry missy but I think you’re talking nonsense here. Please have the facts right before you want to act like a mother Theresa to me. She even said “you have to change your attitude if you don’t want to end up not having good friends around you”. Come on, are you living in a fantasy world? In this cruel life, we don’t really need friends to be around us ALL the time. I have few friends whom I know they will support me whenever I’m in trouble. I may not have a big clan like you do but I do have few little friends who are so darling to me. And do you really think post-marriage life will be the same as before? NO. Friends come and go, depending on when and where you are.

I then told a few friends who she claimed to be part of her clan and little that I know, all her/my friends had the same comfort line “she is always like that. Kau bukan tak tau dia suka cakap lepas”. Yes it came from 4 different people and I was so surprised that I actually did not know her THAT well. Not that I’m really satisfied with what people been talking about her but I’m so frustrated to have a friend like her who was so shallow and yet have the guts to tell straight to my face of what she HEARD about me.

I was considered a snob back in UTP coz I didn’t really mix around with my own batch. Don’t ask me why, I just don’t. But that doesn’t mean you can simply say bad things about me right? Let alone believing what people thought about me. You can believe but does it really hurt you to just keep it to yourself and not trying to be an angel to save me from failing my own life?

Ok I’m diverting from my initial intention. What I really want to express here is please people, don’t judge. I have few friends who like to judge my other friends. I don’t want to budge but I don’t like the way you’re judging him/her/them/me! As long as they don’t cause any pain to your life, then why don’t you just leave them alone? That’s not really a hard thing to do. Do you really have to say bad things about Siti Nurhaliza just because you can’t be as rich as her? Come on…

On another note, I’m currently being judged by a guy who never wanted to see me in order for me to explain things to him. That’s the power of judging. But I don’t fret; I let it all go when the clock strikes 12 on New Year. In fact, I asked for forgiveness for all my wrongdoings and I never want to know the truth or things that had happened in the past. What the other people was talking about me and how the relationship was badly ruined because of this judging attitude. Yeah it was so hurtful but there’s nothing that I can do now, no? I always believe in “truth speaks itself” so I truly hope people can see the real me one day. I’m not that pain in the ass after all. But yes I can be bitchy at times depending on how bitchy you are to me.

I actually drafted the 2 little chapters but I guess I was detailing them too much and I don’t want to create a prolong issue. I am really sticking to my resolution here and generic post will be enough to keep you guys thinking. I don’t mind befriending judgmental people but when this kind of people starts to be so frank with what they have in mind based on what other people might be thinking of me, that’s really disturbing. I accept criticism, as long as it is a constructive one.

Say NO to judgmental!

p/s: I planned to have a sharing session post but it looks more like a rant. ;p

*cheers*

Wishlist

2010-01-03T16:35:00.008+08:00

Though Christmas was long gone but I'm still in the mood of tabulating my future spending in 2010! Haha belum apa2 sudah ada banyak list, camne?

What I WANT for this year:

Camera: lost mine at PCMC. Forgot to do a thorough check before I left the room. That's me, btw. So, contemplating either to grab the LX3 or a Nikon DSLR (maybe D40/ D60?). I'm not into D90 coz it's damn heavy! LX3 seems more attractive for being compact but also serving my needs of having good pictures. Budget? Surprisingly I'm not thiking of any dollar signs here. Good things are damn expensive no? Gadget experts, help me out please!! Anybody with both experience are very much welcome!

Blackberry Bold: Purpose? I can create million reasons for having this. Part of it, I'm bored with my Nokia ExpressMusic 5800 even though it's a cool gadget and serve the main purpose of having a phone. But I don't quite enjoy browsing using touch screen. I keep on losing my stylus as well, so before I end up having no stylus at all I think I'll let it go to my sister (no, nothing is free in this cruel world!). So why BB? Been thinking to have it for so long but since someone actually gave that Nokia to me (Ooh crap, it was a present okay?!) I need access to internet and also to my emails. Will be busy this year when I join the new team and I think I'm in need of a BB now. I'll check with Maxis if they have anything good to offer.

Diving buddy: Ok this one is not a material that can be obtained over the counter! I'm planning to attend an underwater wedding this March and I don't wanna be kera sumbang sorang2. I need a buddy!! Shawn? Well my ex-bf is already back in KL for good and I can always ask him to join me BUT will that be okay to his other half? Not that I bother much but I just need a buddy~~~

Diving equipment: Oh yes this one gonna cost a lot of ka ching!! Need to go thru the jewelries again before I can be serious in spending my cash on them. Boots & mask are on the top but I'm seriously considering to have my own regulator. Geli okay sewa walaupun dia sterile.. euw euw

Rock climbing: Outdoor! I need the right person to bring me for this. Limau!! Please organize 1 for me. I wanna do more outdoor this year.

White Water Rafting: I'm a bit in 50-50 for this. I surely gonna have fun in WWR but I'm hell scared of being toppled upside down and God knows, I might hit the batu bata dalam air and drowned! How la?

Travelling: I have plans for January, February and March and they sure gonna cost me a mountain. But I know it will all be worth with the fun and experiences. Boleh tak pejam mata and let others pay for the expenses? Sugar daddy? NO!

Party: Ha, dont judge! Dont get me wrong with this word. Hehe. I need to have more fun with the girls. More outings, dancing, karaoke, movies, this and that will do.

Dance class: Had a conversation with a girl friend where we agreed on the needs to learn dancing as a way to release all negative energy in our body. But hey, this is expensive okay! Plus I need a dedicated dance partner! A masculine one. Who could it be? ;p

Entrepreneurship: Will have my online shop activated really soon! Wait for it people and please spread the word~.

Renovation: Okay so in 2009 I bought myself a house! Fuh, setelah sakit kepala mengapply loan here and there I'm finally on my way to have my very own crib people! Okay bukan nada menunjuk but I'm just happy and proud of myself. Managed to have it on my own at 26 y.o. Now have to think of the money that I need to fork out for the furnishing and whatnot. Walaupun lambat lagi siapnya, but I know I'm gonna need A LOT for the house. Hopefully everything will go as per planned. Ka ching~ ka ching~

Okay macam berjela2 la kan wish list ni. But I think I'll be able to meet all this, provided I have more money coming in!! Will work my ass out on this. (rasa macam nak main loteri kot2 strike kan? hahaha)

There's the road sign but which way to go people?

*cheers to more ka ching~!*

2.0.1.0

2010-01-03T12:27:00.006+08:00

Agak bosan dengan layout blog ni. Tapi sangat PEMALAS nak edit everything. Boleh upah sesiapa tak? ;p

Trying to do something fresh and new to this blog. FIERY PINK perhaps? Black layout ni kadang2 buat mata jadi sedikit juling especially when I read back all the posts (Yea, I do read my old posts sometimes, that's what this blog is for kan?).

Putih pun agak SUCI. Hah tapi nantilah. 2010 ni banyak sangat agenda yang bakal merosakkan masa senang lenangku. Offshore trip, leisure trip, dive trip, tripping here and there (ok merepek).

I've added back some links yang dengaan kejamnya dulu aku delete. Yea aku di tahun 2009 adalah seorang puteri blog yang kejam, pemikiran songsang. Sape tak active aku strike out from the list. Lepas tu skang diorang baru nak active balik so add la balik and nekad biar aje kalau dia tak active. Contohnye macam si pejai yang dah 11 bulan tak update blog (Oh pejai TOLONGLA bace statement aku ni) haha.

Eh, tak payah jauh2. AKAK beta yang sebelah bilik tu pun tak update jugak! Supermom la katakan. Takpa, dimaafkan. Tunggu masa sesuai nanti mereka2 ini akan membuatkan aku tak sempat pun nak leave footprints here and there.

Unplanned post tapi agak berderet2 dan melelong2.

Happy Birthday to my brother in law. Walaupun dh 3 hari lewat tapi saje lah tempek gak encik simpson nih.

Azam tahun baru: setiap post ada gambar happy atau cute2.. ni boleh la kan? Make sense huh? Disclaimer: pics taken from google. xde harinye aku nk jadi artsy fartsy nih...

*cheers*

When 2009 Waved at Me

2010-01-01T02:21:00.008+08:00

“Another year passed with another year waits. 2009 will be the year for all to wake up from dreaming. 2008 had given us too many nightmares which we will never want to have it coming again. Recalling what happened in that year alone will take up forever. Let's just close the book but keep the lessons learnt pages open. Stick it up where you can see it clearly and frequently.”

Sigh. That was my entry for New Year back in January 2009. Never thought it would mean a lot when I said it’s TIME for us to wake up. Yeah I still had nightmares throughout 2009 but then again, it all turned out to be a sweet dream for me to rock the new 2010. Sounds impossible for a nightmare to turn into a sweet dream no?

(kesian kan budak ni? sape la bagi dia pakai tshirt ni.. hehe)

I chose not to whine over the bitter memoirs. I opted to entwine the feelings and forced myself to reflect it as a constructive shock to myself. Those episodes happened to get me thinking more and more, transmitting positive liveliness to me and evidently, it gets me move forward! Thank you God for showering me with Your love, guidance, mercy and with these fresh beautiful mindset.

I kicked off 2009 with a new working atmosphere as I was seconded to other oil&gas company. Being there for 7 months really trained me abundant experiences and immeasurable knowledge. I had my very first practice working offshore, sleeping with 3 different men, had UTI ensued from improper hygiene on the rig (read: sharing toilets with men?), thousands drops of tears, millions laughter and not forgetting some fling with mat sallehs (yeah 2009 was a naughty year for me). 2009 also opened my eyes wider by seeing this world from different standpoint as I have always been working with Malays and always had in mind that backstabbing “culture” only implies within Malaysians. I welcomed myself to this corner of the world and lucky me, I didn’t get or caused any snag while working there.

I came back to my mother company in August with a devastating heart. The love that was used to bloom simply shattered. I was pronounced depressed for a few weeks and I exhausted all avenues to creep back to where I used to stand. It took me 3 freaking months to be sensible and have a healthy mind. We had a mini break up farewell in Miri and we are currently best buddies! How weird this relationship could turn into eh? Nonetheless, I still love him dearly but I concur to the fate that was written in our life journal. I’ll pray for the best to the both of us, kalau ada jodoh tak kemana kan?

I was blaming God at first for not giving me the love that I have always wanted. Yeah, cruel me. But when you’re in my shoes, you will know how depressing life could be when you can have almost everything except love. But then again, I know deep inside the black hole lies a glittering gems that will make me smile forever. I gathered all my strength and stood up on my two feet to face the world. I let down a few people, those who are so darling to my heart. I’ve asked for thousands apologies for all the wrongdoings and I know I have left a big wound in their heart. If only sorry could unwind everything…

I’m currently on top of my senses and have a very open mind. Those roller coaster effects did left a big impact on me and I’m so thankful to be given an opportunity to “muhasabah” diri and move forward. I’m not saying I’m completely a matured lady now but I know I’m up scaling myself towards it. The lessons learnt are too many to be shared but I will write a few that has significant impact on me which I believed some of my readers can look at it as a life reference.

What does 2010 has for us? I can see a big plate in front of me with colorful gastronomies on top of it. Can’t wait to have a taste of 2010! Resolutions? Big bucks! Big butts! Big boobs? Hahaha. I’m seriously underweight and my nose and throat are still not 100% healed. Will bloat myself once I’m able to grab everything on the food counter and my aim for 2010 is to hit 50kg! Of course with a damn hot sexy body, not the flabby parts waving here and there. *fingers crossed*

Will be transferred to new department by April, insyaAllah. With bigger work scope, deeper depth, deeper water, and hopefully DEEPER pocket? Yeah~! I’m so into more fun for 2010. Not a single minute to be wasted, let alone tears to be shed. Of course these are just my hope but with a high spirit and determination, I think I can overcome any hurdle in front of me. Another resolution for me is just to have lots and lots of fun that I’ve missed all these years. Will be serious in diving again (crap, need to find a new diving buddy! Anyone?) , more and more travelling, expand my very little tiny business, more offshore works (easy money babe), more properties, more of this and more of that. Phew. That’s quite a long list huh? Bottom line, I just want to keep myself happy and have a good heart with a great open mind. And move forward. Be wiser and more mature. Be a good Venusian.

Wishing all of you a very wonderful celebration. Have realistic resolutions and try our best not to replicate the same mistake we’ve done in the past. Never argue to a challenge as that is a way to keep us moving forward and be wiser in facing this malicious world. Lose yourself when tense heats up. Learn to forgive but never forget as it will be part of your lessons learnt journal. So many things that I have to do in order to be a better person by end of 2010. Last but not least, love sincerely and trust the ones you love full-heartedly. Love the people who loves you and you will be happier than you can envisage. I’ve learnt the hard way but I’ve never regret. So people, let’s cherish 2009 and sprinkle 2010 with lots of colorful events!

HAPPY NEW YEAR!

*hugs&kisses*

Shhh to 2009. Some things are better left unsaid. I'm not gonna ask what had happened in the past...

Sometimes we need to be around different people to have different views of life. She is an old friend, but so new to my heart. :)

*cheers*

Christmas Eve

2009-12-29T18:43:00.005+08:00

Yeah some people might be saying “why Malays are more enticed to commemorate Christmas nowadays?” My Facebook page was swamped with few rants and some even questioned of the Islamic culture that people are adapting today. I choose to reserve my thoughts to myself but yeah we did have a little celebration on the Christmas Eve.

No, don’t get me wrong. We didn’t have turkey on the table or even wished for any presents from Santa. Despite the fact that I would really love to see the reindeer coming and Santa goes down thru the chimney (oh, we don’t have any chimney but heck).

I was invited by my dear Aliza to join her and the girlfriends for a night out at Sunway Lagoon. In conjunction with Christmas and New Year, Sunway Lagoon is now operating at night and the admission to the “Nite Park” is free! We went there after office hour and as expected, we were trapped in massive traffic for almost an hour! Thanks to my natural instinct GPS which obviously did not work that well in that area. I totally forgot to bring the GPS along and I’m so not familiar with Sunway district.

Nevertheless, we did not allow the traffic to ruin our happy mood that night since we both were in need of good fun and nice gediks pictures! We joined the rest of the girls (total 6 of us) and that was my first time hanging out with them, which I think I did quite well in blending myself into the crowd. At least, that’s what Aliza said. We took pictures, a lot of them and the other girls enjoyed themselves with the rides. Since me and Aliza have been there before, we were not that thrilled with the rides, probably because we have to pay for each ride we take? *sigh*

We were later joined by my friend, Zeara who came with her girlfriend. We snapped few pictures and decided to have our late dinner since everybody was starving to death! Zeara excused herself and we went to Sunway Pyramid looking for available food stores. Lucky enough we managed to be the super last customers at O’Brien. We had our healthy meals in the dark since most of the shops were already closed.

The fun did not end there. We then made our way to the Amp Square to have our karaoke session. We were down to only 4 as the other 2 were not doing that good to have a super late night. We stayed until 4am that night just to fully utilize the time and of course the money that we had to fork out! That was quite long hours for us to spend time singing (from 11pm to 4am!) and with my throat condition that was still halfway healing, I couldn’t make full use of the time to be the karaoke queen! I sang my heart out till my throat simply gave up. It dried and I was pretty much afraid of bleeding (time nyanyi tarik suara tak takut bleeding pulak ye!).

Queen of the night was As, who has a great voice. Why am I always surrounded with good voices? Back in UTP, I always have Skin who can simply wow the audience with her voice. And on that night alone, As stole the limelight with her singing. (Hah, nada jeles la tu?!) Naah, I’m so proud of these people and I frankly think they should just give up with 8-5 job and try their luck in singing. Better bucks I supposed?

Anyway, me and Aliza finally made our way home around 5am. I was so tired and immediately snuggled myself under the blanket. I left Aliza alone, waiting for Subuh prayers. All in all, it’s one of the good nights to end 2009. We had fun and lots of gediks pictures to cherish. Thanks Aliza for asking me out. We should spend more time together in 2010!!

*cheers*

Don't miss this fun exciting moment! The decoration and lanterns are just wonderful!

Me & Aliza

Me & the girls

When Zeara joined us

Sangap? Ye kot! Parking lot pun jadi "interesting" place

Let alone this one! Haha

Karaoke~

THE surgery

2009-12-28T22:11:00.003+08:00

Wow. It’s been a while since I last expressed myself in this blog. Lots of happening moments I faced in the past 1 month. I will try to post everything here before the year 2009 closes its curtain, which simply means I will blog nonstop from the office? Ooppsie~

Okay. Let’s start with something memorable yet so painful experience. On the 9th of December, I was admitted to Prince Court Medical Centre (PCMC) for having my sinusitis and tonsillitis surgery. That was the 3rd surgery of my life, after the previous 2 surgeries done during the dreadful car accident. The only difference for this surgery was that I had to take the general anesthetic (GA) and of all the things and consequences, I was totally afraid of the GA! I was thinking what would happen if I suddenly woke up in the middle of operation OR worst case if I couldn’t even wake up at all? Or maybe I woke up in heaven or as a bird? That really kept me thinking all week long before I finally said YES and signed the consent form. Luckily the doctor was nice and kind and so were the nurses. Pheww~

So the day came. My mom was besides me all the time and when I checked myself in at the hospital, I simply felt like I’m in the hotel! The hospital is simply marvelous. The service was over the top! The nurses were so kind and cute too (no I’m not homo). I was briefed of the procedure that was going to take place and I couldn’t even digest them in. All I kept asking was the details of the GA. I wasn’t even bothered to ask what would happen AFTER the surgery and how the pain level or whatnot was. I was then given a sleeping pill to keep myself calm, as the doctor said I might chickened out in the OT and run away! But then I was so sleepy that day and I fell asleep before the pill had its effect on me.

The surgery was supposed to be at 1pm, but I was half conscious when they took me to the OT at around 2pm. I saw my doctor and I just waved at him. I felt myself being brought over to the operation table (what’s that called? I have no idea!) And saw lots of people there too. I couldn’t think of anything and I guess I was totally unconscious before they could even put me under the real GA. (yeah, I’m a bed dweller, regardless of the location!)

Once I woke up, I realized I was in my room and heard mom and sis were talking to the nurses asking about my condition. First thing I asked was water as I felt my throat was very dry. The nurse was a bit hesitated to give me a drink since I had just wake up but eventually she gave me a sip. After a few seconds, I felt the urge of throwing up and it got a little bit hectic in the room when I actually throw up a pint of blood (ok that sounds a bit too much hehe). The nurse then told me the effect of GA was still there and I can’t consume ANYTHING til the GA subsided. I went back to sleep for another 2 hours before I vomited blood again. I felt like crying for once but then I guess I was too tired and sleepy to shed any tears.

It was midnight when I tried to eat but the nurse was too afraid of me vomiting blood again. So I had to depend on the drip that was supposed to give me energy. My sis decided to sleep over at the hospital since my condition was pretty bad (yeah mom was pretty freaked out to see me vomiting blood, twice). I couldn’t sleep well that night since the nurses kept coming and checked on my condition, BP, temperature, antibiotics, etc. I was having a mild fever and that was not really a good situation. I was given ice cubes to swallow to avoid further bleeding.

On the second day, the condition gets better and I can consume cold diet that was simply tasteless. Heck, hospital food okey, what was I thinking? Huhu. Doctor was asking if I would like to be discharged on that day itself or stay for another night for observation. Since I still had my fever and the pain was simply unbearable, I chose to stay for another night. I know if I were to go home, that would make Mak a superwoman to take care of me and Sara. And with all the blood coming out from the nose and throat, I don’t want to worry her more. I then slept alone on that 2nd night since I felt a bit better and I knew I was in good hands (the nurses).

Few friends did visit me and brought me a tub of Haagen Dazs!! Oh I’m so thankful to have you around me girls. My team was also there together with my boss, who at first asked the nurse to tell me to put my scarf on! Haha. Sorry boss but I didn’t even bring any to the hospital! Lucky me, I have such a good supportive and understanding team. Thanks to all of you and thanks for the flowers and fruits!

I was discharged on Friday (the 3rd day) and was brought home by my bro in law and maktok. Had to stay indoor for 1 week before I can go out shopping! Yes, we brought maktok for a shopping treat before she left KL and I was still slightly bleeding at that time. There was a moment where I bled excessively and I felt like I was about to faint to see the whole bathroom covered with blood. That happened when I had excessive pressure (thanks to crying, duh!) and it pushed the blood clot out. I was rushed to the emergency and doctor helped to clean it for me with his remarks “this is the first time I encounter this”. Ops, sorry doc. But I was lucky as the artery did not break. That was my doctor’s major concern.

It’s been almost 3 weeks now but I’m still swallowing blood clot! My throat is okay now and I can eat what I want without the needs to depend on pain killer anymore. It all started last Thursday when I started to consume colostrum milk to speed up the recovery process. As many would know, it helps to regenerate cells and within 2 days, I was able to finish a full plate of chicken rice! FYI, I’ve lost 3-4 kg since I had the surgery simply because I cannot eat solid, hot and spicy food. I even cried coz I was too hungry but I couldn’t even swallow them! I love food and I enjoyed eating so that really really breaks my heart. Uhuk!

But hey, I’m recovering tremendously now! Thanks to all the drugs and medications and of course the colostrum milk! I simply love it! Thanks to a friend who helped me with a FREE can! Now I’m able to eat almost everything, and I’m so craving for Prosperity!! I think I’ll be having sumptuous food back again in the next 2 weeks. Hopefully!

I will be having another check up tomorrow to get rid of the blood clot. And I’m so looking forward for more good news. I’m dying for thai food now. (Eh banyaknye food wish list!) Bottom line, I feel great now. I don’t have to depend on any flu medication anymore and I can breathe thru these 2 nostrils!! Previously, I had to take 1 tablet of Actifed (the sleepy flu pills) and a puff of nasal spray before bed. And then I took 2 tablets of Clarityne (the non sleepy flu pills) in the morning. And I had to breathe either thru 1 nostril as it was all time blocked or thru mouth. That's what we called chronic sinusitis.

I’m so thankful with the success of the surgery and many thanks to those who had their prayers and wishes for me. Even though it was quite painful but I guess it’s all worth it. Though I’m not paying for the RM20k bills! Thanks to my company! Wooohoo~ ok enjoy the pics now.

Had my blood taken but it was after the third attempt as the blood did not flow. Takut sangat sampai darahku beku? Hmm

Gamba syok sendiri pre-surgery

Gamba tak berapa syok post-surgery. That gauze was to collect blood since the doctor used the latest technology and I did not have any packs inside my nose (if you know what I'm talking about)

To any of you who would like to have this surgery or if you wanna know more, don't hesitate to ask me.

*cheers*

Telekung

2009-11-21T18:28:00.006+08:00

I'm about to transform this page into an online shopping blog! Went to Saigon last weekend for another shopping spree! Since this was my second time there, I kinda know what to look for and make full use of the time. SO, as not to disappoint any of my friends here, I'm selling some of the stuff I bought. I used to buy those Vietnam stuffs from a colleague before this, and now that I can go there on my own, I'm thinking of doing a side business!

For a start, I will use this blog, while I prepare myself for the next BIG step. I'm selling these nice embroidered Telekung, which is of good quality! This telekung is a bit expensive compared to the one I bought last year as the cloth is thicker and the embroidery are very pretty and plentiful! Take a look at these "amateur" shots..... hehe

Me, being a fussy person, I will always take a look at the face part. This one has full coverage of your chin and the forehead is very simple without those annoying-crumple.

Beautiful embroidery

Complete set with embroidery on the kain as well.

**** THE COLOR SELECTION ****

Sweet Pink

Gorgeous Green

Mix Pink & Baby Blue

Light Pink - Peachy

Pinkish Red

Light Brown

Dark & Light Purple (This is mine!)

Some are already booked, and I will take orders as I will be going there again sometime next month. If you are interested, do leave me a message @ farihah_lai@yahoo.com

Special discount for those who buy more than 1 piece! Oh, I haven't really think of posting it!
I have some other items such as tissue box cover made of Vietnam famous embroidery but it does not look good in the picture by using my old skool camera. I will try to use the "canggih" camera next time!

Beli jangan tak beli. I really love this telekung compared to the Indonesia made as it's very thick and I dont have to worry about the "jarang"ness hehe. Though it's a bit pricey, the quality will make every single cent worth! I've been using one for 3 years now and it still look new! Sempena Raya Haji ni, silelah beli~ Sesuai jugak untuk buat hantaran kawin2 bulan 12 ni kan? =)

Salon Spy

2009-11-02T17:00:00.006+08:00

Gosh I have so many stories to tell but the time and the laziness in me is just not helping! Anyway, to keep this blog moving I'm sharing my great experience had last weekend.Went to new salon at Giant Kota Damansara for new haircut. Apparently my hair is a total mess! Since I had a bob cut last few months back in Setapak, never had I get it trimmed or treated. So I went to this salon, the one and only in Giant, Hair-Doo.

I was attended by Terence, which I think is a senior stylist. He's such a bubbly, warm and simply makes me feel at ease and comfort. While having his fingers run thru my hair, he couldnt stop babbling about his work history and how he had come a long way to be at his current position now. Quite informative for a first-timer huh? Anyway, I love this guy coz he is such a fussy person and me being fussy too, I know my hair is in good hands.

I took the cut+color+treatment package for medium length and that costs me RM149. For the treatment, I need to top up another RM40 for the product. I am very pleased with the result! They even have a customer information booklet, which I had never come across at other Salon. Terence said it is extremely important for them to keep customers' detail (they even have birth date column, another birthday treat perhaps??) as their main objective is to retain as many customers as possible. Oh I'm so in love with this salon! Extremely recommended!

The result!! Ok peeps, prepare yourself for my gedik post.. haha.. I dont have a decent pre-cut picture.

The pic is big coz of the intention to SHOW OFF my new hair color yang tak berapa nak nampak pun..it's a mixture of 3 colors which I'm not really sure.. :P (tak suke, sile abaikan..)

Some said the cut adds more volume to my appearance. True? No? Whatever it is, I'm so satisfied with the service. Worth every cent..

Next on the mission list is to keep it more than shoulder length, and see if my face can suit a bit of curl effect?

Salon: Hair-Doo
Location: Giant Kota Damansara (they have another branch in IOI Mall Puchong)
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Fragile

2009-10-04T19:31:00.005+08:00

No, it's not that I'm fragile (though I really am). I wont be blogging about those sad unhappy feelings anymore. It's time to do something new to this blog.

I recently went to Miri for a short training course. Usually when I check my luggage in, I will request the staff to put it as fragile. One of the reason is because those fragile item will be handled first, i.e. i will get to take my luggage first on the conveyor belt!

Unfortunately for me this time, I forgot to ask the staff to tag it as fragile item. When I reached the airport, I discovered the handle of my luggage was damaged! I couldnt pull it up and after several attempts, I managed to pull the handle 1/3 up from its total length. Imagine how I dragged my luggage with that 1/3 height?

I examined my luggage and being an engineer (puke! puke!) I tried to figure out what went wrong with the system. I discovered the problem at the part where the handle was located, as if it had been hammered. Potentially, it was hit by something that was really hard during the flight or simply mishandled.

I wanted to lodge a report and get them replace my luggage but for unknown reason, I walked out of the airport with empty mind. I'll take it as it is time for me to get a new bag! And yes I did buy a new luggage bag at KLIA :P

So, my advise to travellers, if you think your luggage is not that durable to withstand all those harsh handling i.e. throwing, kicking or even long hours journey, get the fragile tag placed on your luggage. Yes the staff can be quite pain in the ass sometimes when you request for fragile tag, but feel free to share my experience with them. Better be safe than sorry~!

Good

2009-10-02T16:22:00.005+08:00

1. I'm still writing. Good thing showing I'm moving on with my life.

2. I'm single, and TMF is just not the one for me. Maybe there's someone better for both of us, nobody knows. Let's just pray for the best.

3. But we are still best friends! Coz he knows me best and both of us pun mcm takde kawan je? Sebab tu sesuai dulu jadi couple kan? :P

4. Thanks to you for showing me the true meaning of love and showering me with everything. I'm going to miss all those sweet moments we had, including scene gaduh baling handphone pink saye tuh.. :P

5. Ok dah abis part mushy2...

6. Hope its still not too late to wish everyone Selamat Hari Raya. Hope you guys had a good one.

7. Thousand apologies to everyone if I ever did step on your toe (memang ade la tuh kan hehe).. mintak dimaafkan.. Dihalalkan makan minum and everything lah ye..

8. Our raya was great! Especially bila dapat hang out dengan kawan2 sekolah, oh I miss you girls so much! We should lepak2 more!

9. Relationship with family members makin baik, hopefully next year we can have a damn good barbecue lagi lah!

10. Oh, next year beraya rumah baru!! Yeeeehhaaaa~~~ Enjoy kenangan raya tahun ni yang sangat best dengan kerenah si kecik itu! Now I know how does it feels to have a kid around you. Pegi miri 3 hari pun rindu banget sama sawa!

Boring kan main sorang2 kt umah, maklumla keluarga mummy kan kecik... So, kaki maktok jadi mangsa~

Kaki maktok asyik terlebih kertas je...

Lupe nk snap hasil lukisan dia..tp mmg xde rupe bentuk kaki pun lah..

It's never too late

2009-08-16T15:42:00.002+08:00

Lama rasanya saya termenung di hadapan laptop ni, memikirkan perkataan yang sesuai untuk memulakan bicara.

Syukur. Mungkin itulah yang harus saya ucapkan setiap kali terjaga dari tidur. Syukur kerana masih dipanjangkan umur. Syukur kerana masih dalam keadaan sempurna. Syukur kerana masih mempunyai tempat dan masa di bumi ini untuk mencari dan menghayati ajaran Islam.

Saya bukanlah baru graduate bidang agama. Saya belum pernah jejakkan kaki ke sekolah agama. Cuma sejak beberapa hari kebelakangan ini, saya dihimpit rasa sesal yang teramat sangat. Saya menangis, meraung, menyalahi diri sendiri kerana takdir yang menimpa saya. Saya tercari-cari arah untuk dituju. Saya kerap tertanya-tanya kenapa hidup saya ditulis begini. Kenapa hidup saya tidak seindah rakan-rakan saya? Tidak sebahagia rakan-rakan saya yang lain? Persoalan demi persoalan datang bertimpa-timpa sehingga saya mengalami depression yang agak teruk.

Saya mula menceritakan masalah yang saya hadapi dengan diri saya kepada rakan-rakan yang boleh dipercayai. Saya sentiasa sedar akan masalah saya namun saya tak pernah ada kesedaran untuk perbaiki diri sendiri. Sehinggalah saya diberi dugaan yang hebat ini. Syukur saya mempunyai beberapa kenalan yang bukan sahaja mahu mendengar luahan hati saya, malah mereka meng-offer solution and advices untuk saya. Niat asal saya hanyalah mahukan seseorang untuk mendengar luahan rasa saya,kerana itulah lumrah seorang wanita. Sifat wanita yang baru saya ketahui (hasil bacaan Men Are From Mars, Women Are From Venus). Wanita mahukan seseorang untuk mendengar masalah mereka, Cuma mendengar. Dengan hanya mendengar dan memberi sokongan seperti “you’ll be okay, you’re doing great”, dengan sendirinya beban atau stress tu hilang. Tetapi kebanyakan lelaki kurang memahami naluri dan sifat wanita, maka kaum adam akan sama ada offer solutions atau berasa boring kerana asyik mendengar masalah wanita. Dari sini, jadilah “misunderstanding”.

Saya bersyukur salah seorang rakan saya mempunyai kenalan yang boleh membantu orang yang mempunyai masalah “temper” seperti saya. Saya akui, saya sangatlah panas baran orangnya. Dari hari saya dilahirkan, saya sentiasa mendapat apa yang saya hajati, “I always get what I want when I want”. Hasilnya? Saya kurang reti bersabar dalam setiap hal. Perangai baran makin menjadi-jadi sejak saya mula berkerja offshore. Kehidupan yang serba kekurangan di offshore membuatkan saya hilang pertimbangan. Kadang-kadang bila api kemarahan memuncak, saya terasa seperti hendak membelasah orang atau membaling barang. Saya rasakan seolah-olah saya telah dirasuk oleh bad spirit.

Syukur, saya sedar akan kekurangan diri saya. Saya sedar perangai buruk saya akan memakan diri saya sendiri. Saya telah kehilangan sesuatu yang sangat saya impikan selama ini. Saya redha, saya anggap inilah dugaan Allah untuk saya. Saya diduga kerana Allah masih sayangkan saya, masih mahu memberi peluang untuk saya berubah. Masih ada waktu untuk saya berubah. InsyaAllah.

Kehidupan saya sekarang sangat tenang. Walaupun kadang-kadang rasa sedih dan sesal datang menghimpit, namun saya kuatkan semangat dan tenangkan diri. Saya tak pernah terbayang yang diri saya ni dipenuhi gangguan-gangguan. Saya lupa tentang janji-janji syaitan yang akan sentiasa menyesatkan anak-anak keturunan Nabi Adam. Saya lupa tentang tujuan hidup saya di muka bumi ini. Saya lupa bersyukur. Saya taksub dengan harta dunia, taksub dengan kebahagiaan dunia.

Saya mohon maaf daripada semua umat manusia yang pernah saya sakiti. Saya manusia yang lemah dan sentiasa penuh dengan kesilapan. Saya berusaha untuk memperbaiki diri. Saya mohon diberikan petunjuk dan support daripada keluarga dan rakan-rakan. Saya mohon diberikan peluang kedua untuk menjadi anak yang solehah, sahabat yang sejati, rakan kerja yang disenangi.

Tulisan kali ni bukanlah untuk menagih simpati. Tulisan kali ni adalah untuk pengingatan kepada saya dan rakan-rakan. Sesuatu yang terjadi itu ada hikmahnya. Setiap dugaan itu membuatkan kita menjadi lebih tenang dan redha. Janganlah mengeluh, janganlah menyalahkan takdir. Jika mengeluh atau menyalahkan takdir, kita seolah-olah marahkan Tuhan pencipta kita. Bersyukurlah dengan apa yang telah diberikan kepada kita, cukup sifat, sihat untuk berkerja dan beribadat, Negara yang aman damai, keluarga yang penyayang, etc.

Ucapkanlah selawat ke atas Nabi junjungan kita dan beristighfarlah sebanyak mungkin. Mohon dijauhkan dari gangguan syaitan nirrojim. Sesungguhnya Allah dan para malaikat sendiri sentiasa berselawat ke atas Nabi Muhammad S.A.W, maka apakah alasan kita umatnya yang tidak berselawat ke atasNya? Wallahu’alam.

-farihah-

Lost

2009-08-11T16:31:00.003+08:00

Sometimes I realized I’m having difficulties to control myself. I’m emotional. I realized some may be calling me bitch behind my back, especially those who have been hurt or “fired” by me when they did wrong or when they couldn’t give what I really need.

Lately, I’ve been having hard times dealing with myself. I can hardly control my anger, my feelings, my emotions. I always wanted to win. I believe in “I always get what I want when I want”.

Reality zapped me. It hit hard on my face. But when I get to my senses, I realized everything is too late now. I can’t unwind what I’ve done or said. And even if I could, the scar that I left in someone’s heart stays forever. I’m in deep shit.

Why is it every time something tickles me, I get really pissed? I can’t stop myself from uttering something harsh, or do something stupid. At certain point, I feel like hitting something or throw something really hard to vein my anger.

Thing is, I realized it. I know it’s a big problem. I want to stop. I don’t want to be a bitch. I want to be a good person. But I just don’t know how. How can I keep myself calm when there’s something bothering me? How can I stop myself from hurting other people’s feeling?

I know I have to be strong at my spiritual. But when I’m in that position, I forgot everything. I forgot what I’ve promised myself to be. I neglected my previous lessons learnt.

I’m on the losing end now.

Sisters

2009-08-08T10:29:00.003+08:00

A young wife sat on a sofa on a hot humid day, drinking iced tea and visiting with her mother. As they talked about life, about marriage, about the responsibilities of life and the obligations of adulthood, the mother clinked the ice cubes in her glass thoughtfully and turned a clear, sober glance upon her daughter..

'Don't forget your sisters,' she advised, swirling the tea leaves to the bottom of her glass. 'They'll be more important as you get older. No matter how much you love your husband, no matter how much you love the children you may have, you are still going to need sisters. Remember to go places with them now and then; do things with them.'

'Remember that 'sisters' means ALL the women... your girlfriends, your daughters, and all your other women relatives too....... 'You'll need other women. Women always do.'

What a funny piece of advice!' the young woman thought. Haven't I just gotten married? Haven't I just joined the couple-world? I'm 20 now a married woman, for goodness sake! A grownup! Surely my husband and the family we may start will be all I need to make my life worthwhile!'

But she listened to her mother. She kept contact with her sisters and made more women friends each year. As the years tumbled by, one after another, she gradually came to understand that her mother really knew what she was talking about. As time and nature work their changes and their mysteries upon a woman, sisters are the mainstays of her life..

After more than 50 years of living in this world, here is what I've learned:

THIS SAYS IT ALL:

Time passes.

Life happens.

Distance separates.

Children grow up.

Jobs come and go.

Love waxes and wanes.

Men don't do what they're supposed to do.

Hearts break.

Parents die.

Colleagues forget favours.

Careers end.

BUT..........

Sisters are there, no matter how much time and how many miles are between you. A girl friend is never farther away than needing her can reach.

When you have to walk that lonesome valley and you have to walk it by yourself, the women in your life will be on the valley's rim, cheering you on, praying for you, pulling for you, intervening on your behalf, and waiting with open arms at the valley's end..

Sometimes, they will even break the rules and walk beside you.........Or come in and carry you out.

Girlfriends, daughters, granddaughters, daughters-in-law, sisters, sisters-in-law, Mothers, Grandmothers, aunties, nieces, cousins, and extended family: all bless our life!

The world wouldn't be the same without women, and neither would I. When we began this adventure called womanhood, we had no idea of the incredible joys or sorrows that lay ahead. Nor did we know how much we would need each other..

Every day, we need each other still. Pass this on to all the women who help make your life meaningful..

I just did. Short and very sweet:

There are more than twenty angels in this world. Ten are peacefully sleeping on clouds. Nine are playing. And one is reading this at this moment.

*hugs & kisses* to my sister & my darling girlfriends (you know who you are)...

PPSMI.. Yes? No? Dont know?

2009-07-29T20:35:00.001+08:00

I celebrated the end of my mother’s journey as a teacher last weekend. She has been teaching for more than 30 years of her life with her main experts in Science. She was with the secondary syllabus for more than half of her career life before switching to primary school, after the implementation of “guru siswazah” or graduate teacher thingy few years back.

When I spent the weekend with her, we discussed lots of sensational issue and the PPSMI issue is among them. Mom put me in the picture when she explained the difficulties faced by both teachers and students when the program was launched and the effectiveness of the program. I always know mom has no problem to teach in English as she had her education in English and she herself used to teach English during the first few years of her career.

She highlighted that not many or perhaps not all teachers can teach Science and Maths in English, especially the newly graduated ones. Why? Coz their foundation is weak! They may be good in science or maths but they cannot converse fluent English. How can these so called teachers explain to their students in depth? This will then resulted them teaching in Malay or using bahasa rojak when they can’t find the right words to answer the students, and some are very smart students. Hence, the program will not be successful!

Mom told me that PPSMI is not the best way to help students to improve their English. For instance, Maths will involve addition, subtraction, multiplication and division and there’s no grammar involved. They are mostly numbers and students can excel in that subject regardless of the language. The only way to help them to improve and enhance their communication skills and confidence level is by brushing up the English subject itself.

I was again surprised to know that the English syllabus is taught differently from what we learnt in our primary and secondary years. Most of the students do not even know what is Past Tense, Present Tense, Future Tense, Past Continuous etc. I’m not so sure though what are they learning in school now.

Mom pointed some key points that I totally agree with when it comes to helping students to improve their English.

1. Change the syllabus and bring back the Past Tense and its friends and students have to master that.
2. Emphasize more on simple grammar i.e. is, are, am (yes, we have engineers who are still confused with basic grammar)
3. Include English literature in the subject and it has to be a must pass subject.
4. Extend English subject hour to allow more interactions and conversations in English.

Then the rest will come easily for the students to master. Unlike me, I’m very weak in my vocab as I don’t like to read. :P When TPM announced to revert back to conventional method, mom said he emphasized more on the learning of point no1 stated above, which is a good thing!

p/s: I still remember we used to have “English Week” during primary school and we were all excited to speak in English in our very own way. Macam itik cakap dengan ayam gitu!

3rd death.. and we are still plain ignorant?

2009-07-28T21:25:00.003+08:00

Everyone KNOWS of the unstoppable Swiney but how many are really aware of this? I’m quite taken aback to see some of our “rakyat” are not taking this matter seriously, let alone the government. Everyday we read in the news about the increasing number of positive swiney and recently we’ve been shaken with the number of fatality. From one it went up to 2 and now three!

I went to KLIA last Friday with the recent news of a young Indonesian who was swiney to death. Me being super paranoid of this stuff immediately bought myself 2 pieces of face mask and had it on my face. Never had I imagined I would draw full attention of the crowd at KL Sentral when I took the ERL to KLIA. I once felt like I’m a superstar gitu~ (haha).

I was never bothered of the attention given by the crowd until I was in KLIA and rushing to my departure gate. At first I did not notice or hear anybody was talking to me until I heard this conversation:

Man A: Tak bleh nak cakap dengan die.. Die tutup mulut..
Man B: Die takde gigi kot.. (all other men burst into laughter)
Man C: H1N1 punye kes la ni..
Man D: Ala, domestic takde pape la..

Me: Haih, kalau nak mati kat mana-mana pun tak kira la domestic ke international ke..

I was pissed when I heard them joked about ME wearing a mask as a self precaution against ANY kind of influenza, be it human or pig! I don’t mind if they are plain ignorant but does it hurt their feelings to see me wearing a mask? Mind you, they are in late 20’s or early 30’s and none are having this sense of awareness? Stupid? Of course they are!

I was thunderstruck when there was NO health screening facilities installed at ANY of the gates in KLIA. I was informed by a friend who recently visited Miri that there’s no more health check up conducted at Miri Airport like the one they had 2 months ago. Why of this sudden stop? It’s not that swiney is fully cured or stoppable! Why???

If the government is not taking the necessary precautions to prevent this pandemic, who will take care of our health then? We, right? And when WE take care of our own health, do others have to condemn and make stupid irritating remarks?

Stay vigilant. Be resilient.

Don’t be a pathetic moron.

Gadis penulis termenung... salah ke aku pakai mask?

Glory-glory Malaysia

2009-07-19T11:39:00.006+08:00

It’s been years since I last watched a football match, be it live at the stadium or on TV. I think the last match I watched was during the semi finals of World Cup 2006. I didn’t even make it for the final as I have already started working at that time, and there’s no way I could stay up awake and go to work the next morning.

I used to be a diehard fan of the Red Devils when I was in secondary and doing my degree. Ryan Giggs has always been my favorite player, and coincidently he’s wearing the number of my birth date. Before that I always admire Eric Cantona and I still have his poster used as a wrapper of my “buku sifir”. Hehe. No no I never like David Beckham! Ooppss~

It was never in my plan to go and watch them live when I first heard about their Asia Tour. Considering I’m no longer a big fan of the team, I don’t really care much of their news and what about. Then came my colleague, Intiran who kept on telling me about all this MU updates and there will be time when we came to me with his sad pathetic look and said “Hani, I’m stressed!” And me being a very good friend (ehek) put down my pen and stopped my work trying to be a good listener. “Why? What happened? Is everything okay?”

“Ronaldo is leaving Man U.. shit la that guy bla bla bla” he said. I was speechless at first and shouted at him for making me feel sorry for that! Damn! These guys are so obsessed with Man U! When we were on the rig, it’s like everyday news that they have to check. When the internet was down, he will be crazy trying to get the connection back and of course, I would be the one to listen to all his “sad” stories, new players bought ant whatnot. Yikes!

2 weeks ago he and Hakam were looking for tickets to watch MU live in Bukit Jalil. I saw an advert at my friend’s YM selling off some tickets. I broke the news to them and they got all excited about it. I was the middle person for the transaction but it didn’t happen in the end as Hakam was not satisfied with the seating. He then called up all the ticket agents and confirmed on the tickets available for the match. Me on the other hand was thinking and contemplating of joining them. Looking at my schedule, I should be free on that weekend. I then agreed to tag along rather than staying alone at home, as my dear housemate Aliza would definitely be going!

Came yesterday, we met up at KLCC for our lunch. We then decided to take the train to the stadium and when we arrived at Masjid Jamek, it was swamped with Red Devils! I only noticed 2 or 3 of them wearing Malaysian jersey. And as expected, the queue was tremendously long and luckily we managed to get my ticket ahead of them. Note to all, it’s either you top up your touch&go much much earlier OR you drive to the stadium. I forgot to reload my t&g and it was not something that you would want to end up with (read: long queuing!).

We arrived around 4pm and kick off was at 5.30pm. Intiran arrived much earlier and saved us our seats. We walked through the sea of Red Devils and settled ourselves in the stadium. It was my first time to be in Stadium Bukit Jalil and it was all covered with Red shirts and flags. Some even put on the red toupee and most of us are just wearing the team’s jersey. Lucky me, I got my jersey 2 hours before the match! Hakam has been looking for it for the past 1 week and couldn’t get the right size. Most of the XS and S sized ladies jersey were SOLD OUT! I then decided to put on the KIDS jersey and it fit nicely! Haha. Yeah, I always wear kids’ version when it comes to Nike or Adidas baby-t. :P Oh, zillion thanks to Hakam for the birthday gift! I loike loike loikeeeee~~!!

Hakam brought his bino along and we got to see the players clearly! Gosh, I don’t even recognize most of the players and I kept asking them who is who!

The match? AWESOME! I went there with the Red Devils’ spirit and prayed that Malaysia won’t be beaten to death! Haha. Hakam’s prophecy was 5-0 winning for Red Devils and I had mine with 6-0, just like previous years’. But then our prediction was all denied by Amri when he scored his first goal. The match gets more intense and lively when both were struggling to score more goals. Rooney, as expected contributed 1 out of 3 goals during the match. I somehow think Man U didn’t play their best and Van der Saar of course was not at his top performance, letting 2 goals from Amri to get through. I’m not saying Amri got it out of luck though. He has indeed performed very well and most of our young players did their best throughout the match. I can feel their high spirit until the end of the minute, unlike previous matches where they all played “sambil lewa” and gets demotivated when Man U keep scoring their goals. Salute to the defense, which I personally think had worked their ass off very very well. (Walaupun bolos 3 ketul). =p

Malaysian team was quite in a slow pace when it comes to attacking. We could have got more goals if they had fast counter attack kinda play and yes it was obvious that some are anxious when they had the one-to-one experience with Van der Saar. Perhaps they don’t know which way to kick the ball? But that was during the first half and it gets better when they got into the second half of the match.

I can’t believe I’m supporting Malaysian team now! Haha. Anyway, there will be another match this Monday at 8.45pm, which I will be going AGAIN! I will still put on my Man U jersey but will add little extra Malaysian accessories. Anyone else going? Come one people!! It’s one of a kind match not to be missed!

Jom jejoms~!!

Overly excited in the LRT... me & Hakam

Look out the crowd!! Kayalah LRT semalam... woohooo

Di tengah lautan maknosia!

Suke suke suke!!

Beli jangan tak beli bang..

The pancaragam..during opening..

Masih belum full..

Me, Hakam & Intiran yang berangan nak jadi model!

WHOOOAAAA~~~!!

More and more pictures will be loaded soon!!

Sahabat, Kawan, Kenalan

2009-07-15T11:18:00.004+08:00

Selalu sangat kite bercakap “this is my friend” but what does that “friend” refers to? Sahabat? Rakan? Teman? Kenalan? Pernah tak for once kite terfikir tentang wujudnya perkataan-perkataan ni dalam penggunaan bahasa kita?

Personally, I have my own definition of those words, which may be wrong to certain of you.

Sahabat adalah rakan yang mempunyai persefahaman tentang hubungan persahabatan. Which means, we understand and respect each other’s feelings and pride. Pernah dengar sahabat sejati? More to rakan karib lah kan. Time happy most of the time kita akan cerita pada sahabat dan juga rakan-rakan yang lain bukan? Silap haribulan dekat boss pun kita cerita. Tapi bila sedih, hanya sahabat yang kita cari. Time tu la kita akan cakap “kau lah sahabat sejati dunia akhirat”. Kenape?

Kawan adalah seseorang atau beberapa orang yang kita kenal dan kita senang meluangkan masa bersama. Kita berkawan dengan semua orang, tapi tak semua berjaya menjadi Sahabat kita. Kawan ada macam-macam jenis. Kawan sekolah, kawan serumah, kawan sepejabat, kawan sepermainan, kawan wayang.. sort of macam clan or clique lah. Most of the time kawan hanyalah untuk masa-masa gembira yang ada happy ending. Contohnya kawan PIPE aku hanya jumpa once in a while and kitorang akan habiskan masa main bowling dan tengok movie dan gossip. Tapi semua tu berakhir macam tu saje dan akan jumpa balik mungkin setahun selepas itu. Itulah kawan… yang penting happy ending kan?

Kenalan pada aku adalah manusia yang aku tau nama dan mungkin sedikit latar belakang orang tu. “Aku kenal dia”. Kenal la dia nama apa, keja mana, duduk mana.. etc.. Itu kenal. Tak de pernah meluangkan masa berkongsi dari hati ke hati pun. Very surface la kiranya.

Teman? Hehe. To me teman is simply my boyfriend a.k.a. teman lelaki. That does not need any definition here coz I’m sure all of you are fully aware of this, kan?

Apa kaitan sume ni dalam post kali ni? Takde apa, cuma nak luahkan perasaan yang terbuku ni ha. Orang kate, writing will help you to vein your anger. Kan? Aku dah beberapa kali tersalah define erti kawan nih. Most of the time aku akan anggap kawan adalah sahabat, iaitu orang yang harus aku jaga hati dan perasaan diorang dan sebagai seorang sahabat, aku akan sentiasa rasa kewajipan menolong sahabat-sahabat yang dalam kesusahan.

Tapi tu dulu lah. Sekarang aku akan anggap semua orang hanyalah KENALAN. Aku dah serik dengan dunia KAWAN-KAWAN nih dan aku sanggup tak berkawan semata-mata nak jaga hati dan perasaan sendiri. Yelah, kalau kawan yang kita sanjung tu tak reti jaga hati dan perasaan kita serta MARUAH kita, kenapa nak anggap dia kawan lagi? Baiklah aku tarik diri dan anggap aku yang TAK LAYAK untuk menjadi kawan atau sahabat dia. Betul kan? Cukuplah sekadar kita KENAL each other. I don’t bother to befriend you anymore.

Cukuplah kau sakitkan hati aku selama nih. I’ve given you a chance to prove me that you are my friend and I have forgiven you for the things you said to me last time. But I guess I can never be good enough or a good friend to you that you couldn’t even care of my feelings and my pride. I won’t say you never learn from your mistakes coz I know if I were a good friend to you, you won’t be doing this to me. So I’m taking the blame and I hope we will never talk to each other anymore. Anggaplah aku yang tak sudi berkawan dengan kau so you don’t have to feel sorry about this. And I too, won’t feel bad about this and won’t keep thinking of those why-who-which thingy that caused you doing this to me.

I found this while looking for definition of kawan in the net (tapi yang lain plak aku jumpe)… Feel free to fit yourself in those definitions…

kata mama...
KAWAN tu ibarat lebah,
habis madu sepah dibuang.......

kata papa...
KAWAN tu umpama bunga ros,
dipandang cantik dipegang sakit.....

kata atuk...
KAWAN tu seperti air
terus mengalir.....

kata nenek...
KAWAN tu bak bulan
dipuja dan disanjung tapi nun jauh di sana....

kate sedara...
KAWAN tu mcm makanan,
kawan makan kawan!!

kata abang...
KAWAN tu seperti lembu
mengikut saje ape dikata........

kata kakak...
KAWAN tu tak ubah macam durian
bau je busuk tapi sedap dimakan....

kata adik...
KAWAN tu macam biskut
sekejap ade sekejap takde.......

kata aku? Lu pikir la sniri! ops sorry nabil i curi tagline u.. hoho

p/s: I'm in very good, happy mood. Please don't ruin this. =)

Double Celebration

2009-07-11T01:41:00.003+08:00

Arini bertambahlah satu angka dalam usia aku.. Tak dapat mengaku muda lagi.. hehe.. 2 bulan je dpt merasa se-umur dengan TMF.. hoho..

Malam ni colleague merangkap abang aku bawak aku gi celebrate bday dkt Tanjung Lumpur, then lepak2 dekat Hyatt and jalan2 di Teluk Chempedak sambil melenjan Mercedes S200 baru dia.. woot~

Somehow this year aku tak rase pun excited utk birthday. Slalunye tahun2 seblom nih 2-3 hari aku dah excited gile dah. Maybe sebab this year ter-celebrate awal kot? Tu yang dah kurang seri nye kan? Tahun depan nak tuntut janji seseorang utk celebrate 3 hari 3 malam!! huhu

Anyway, cam biasa tarikh keramat ni jugak menandakan me & TMF bertambah setahun lagi. Dah 2 tahun rupanya kan. Dah macam2 jenis dugaan dah datang. Huhu.. Tak kose la nak jiwang2 di blog kan.. nanti I jiwang2 di talipon saje.. :P

Papepun, Happy birthday to me! and Happy 2nd year anniversary, sweetheart~~ *I heart u*

Somehow I really like this pic.. Maybe susah nak tengok encik abang senyum happy camni dlm gambar kot???

And this is for you darling....

I dont pretend to know what love is for everyone, but I can tell you what it is for me;

LOVE is knowing all about someone, and still wanting to be with them more than any other person..
LOVE is trusting them enough to tell them everything about yourself, including the things you might be ashamed of...
LOVE is feeling comfortable and safe with someone, but still getting weak knees wheen they walk into a room and smile at you...

I love you, Tengku Mohd Fauzi.. =)

Body Composition

2009-07-05T17:44:00.004+08:00

I spent nearly 4 hours pampering myself at Aster Spring, KLCC yesterday. Started with upper back treatment which took nearly 1 1/2 hours followed with a new facial treatment called the oxygen treatment. Oxygen was used in preventing future breakouts and it was fun~

Once done with the treatments, I requested for a weight measurement. I noticed the weighing machine placed at the changing room for quite sometime but I never bother to use it. I thought it's only for weighing but little that I know it also measures my body composition. It's called the Body Composition Analyzer.

From there, I knew my BMI, which is still underweight (as expected). Both therapist and me were surprised with the body fat percentage!! I scored 23.4%, nearing the limit of 24%! Hoho! Orang kurus banyak lemak leads to high cholesterol! Ni blom buat med check up ye, confirm la cholesterol level mcm everest!

My water level was quite low as I hadnt drink much for that day. The impedance of my toxicity was way beyond the limit! I had 700++ when the limit is somewhere around 400, or 500 (cant remember). Hmm.. I always avoid going to sauna to get rid of the toxin and I have 2 packs of detox drinks which I seldom take. I guess I have to take it back now since the level is very high. Huhu. The therapist asked if I were stressed but I said no. I'm in very happy mood and I dont feel stress at all. Perhaps that explains the back acne that I'm having at the moment.

Okay, need to get rid of those unwanted level... more water, less fat, less toxin.. go go go hunz!

Note that I'm still 25 until this weekend.. (hint..hint) haha

Detail: Body Fat (23.4%), Body Water (23.9%), Toxicity (719 ohm)
FFM tuh ape tah x ingat.. hoho

Retail Therapy

2009-07-04T00:03:00.004+08:00

so called...

Today I went to meet a friend of mine who just came back from Houston, following her hubby who was assigned for a short term project there. While she was there, we constantly or lemme rephrase... I constantly emailed her asking for this and that, which one is cheaper etc etc.. Haha. I can never stop thinking of what to buy while she's there!

Ebay became my greatest addiction. I surf for every single stuff, be it handbag, books, electronics.. you name it! And I did that almost every day until Ebay can no longer be accessed at the office..hehe, Im sorry to other employees :)

I chose a mini tote (never thought it would turn out to be very mini like super mini in real life!) and she did a great job in the bidding, showing her true colors of being a procurement executive. Haha, ade kaitan kah? :P. I was very satisfied with that purchased as it cost me less than half of its original price! I loveeeeeeeeee ebay! haha.

Today, I went to visit her or mainly to "visit" my newly bought tote as I will not be in town next week when she resumed her work duties. I browsed thru some of the bags she bought and was contemplating between those awesome bags! I mms-ed my sis, called her few times, thinking and thinking again, did a super quick budget calculation and finally I chose to buy another 2 (TWO!!) bags! OMG! But it was all worth the price!

So, I ended up having these 3 bags, and dont ask me how much it costs! Cukup la sekadar membuatkan aku tersedak kejap untuk bulan ni.. haha.. I will consider these as my birthday gifts for this year and hopefully I will not buy any more bags after this! (Please God, let them design new bags horribly that I dont even feel like taking it for free!)

3 beradik... huhu

Untuk gi office serta travel jauh2.. sumbat segala payung botol air mak nenek sume dlm nih.. puas hati!

Untuk gi dating serta outing.. hehe.. cute tak mini tote nih? Nasib la ai kurus keding, muat je galas..

Untuk lunch + kalo ada dinner yg memerlukan clutch tp sebat je wristlet nih..blasah..

p/s: post ni bkn la dgn niat nk menunjuk ye.. saje nk tunjuk dkt akak dan buah hati je.. jgn kate ai show off plak.... =) kalo sape2 berminat, ade beberapa lagi yg kwn aku beli tu nak jual.. roger2 lah ye...

p/s2: still tak percaya dah beli beg2 di atas until now.. kena tido dan bangun tengok esok ade lagi ke atau mimpi.. haha over gitu.. yela, aku x penah beli beg semahal ni ye.. dulu siap kondem2 orang beli bag mahal2.. last2 sniri yg tergedik2.. *tepuk dahi*

p/s3: tido peluk beg..penuh katil.. hahaha ok ni over, memain je.. nitey nite all~~

Gamba lagi

2009-07-03T23:14:00.003+08:00

Gamba bulan bape pun tak pasti.. bila eh? May kot? Masa ni wedding Maisarah sebelah Najmie.. Sebelah Mai aku tak pegi demam teruk berhari2 baru balik rig... So gi la sebelah Najmie sambil berpura2 jadi anak pasangan Azwa + Alan.. hehe... Mekaseh Azwa sebab angkut aku gi skali.. aku kan manje gitu ;p ;p ;p

Sayu plak tengok rambut panjang aku tuh.. tak jadi sgt dah toncit tyra banks tuh.. haha (bf i yg namakan fesyen rambut tyra) Eh, nampak mata cam besar skit tak? Saje gedik pakai color lense tu, dia ckp leh nampak mata lagi besar! Tapi aku tengok sepet jugak je? Hmm..

Mase ni baru balik rig... tengah super tanned! Pakai foundation pun dah jadi kelabu asap, tidak sama dengan warna kulit! Argh tension wehhhh... skang dh x pakai foundation, takut kelabu.. hehe

Tak sempat nak karang cerita pasal wedding Mai aritu, makanya ni je lah citenye untuk tatapan dan kenangan... Congrats again Mai... =)

Pre-Birthday Celebration

2009-07-02T11:07:00.005+08:00

Photos of the dinner.. Sikit ja gambaqnya.. Lupa la katakan sibuk melantak masing2 pun.. Si kenit Sara syok layan TV.. Aku pun taktau cerita apa.. huhu... Gambaq Sara ada kat hp TMF, nanti sila2 lah send kat saye ye.. :)

Tersenyum simpul plak tuan bayar malam nih.. huhu

Gambar takde yang decent.. huhu

Yang ni lagiiiii la tak decent! Sara sibuk layan TV.. cita apa ek??

Opening? Hahahaha.. Takleh lawan nachos TGIF

Sandwich yang sedap tapi tak larat nak ngabiskan..

Kak, u didnt try the corn.. Memang lemakkkk sangat! Rugi wei balik awai.. haha

Eh dish lagi satu tak amik? Dish sara pun tak snap.. Nampak sangat seronok makan.. huhuh..

Quote FB kakak utk TMF (yela bf i kan takdak fb..huhu)

Harni Safarina: Mak Su's pre-birthday celebration dinner...

Terima kasih kpd tukang bayar. Lepas ni belanja lagi..hehehe

3 Hari 3 Malam

2009-06-28T23:02:00.003+08:00

aku berdating...

Fuh! Penat seh!! Tapi sangat seronots dan rase cam masih terlompat2 di atas awan gitu.. hehe.. TMF terlibat dengan Karnival Keluarga Syarikat this year, so Friday aritu ade final untuk game dia. Aku pun tak penah gi tengok dia main since aku pun keje kan. So, last Friday dengan hormatnya aku cabut pegi Bangi untuk bagi support kat dia. Bertemankan Aliza, aku pun terkedek2 la masuk Dart Room tuh. First time gak untuk aku be in that room during big tourney.

Yang bestnya, time TMF nye game, aku yang nervous skali. Siap shaking tuh badan2.. haha over sungguh! Yeah, aku pun kena prepare diri jugak untuk big tourney camtuh. This year tak join selection sebab tak tau pun bile selectionnye so tunggu next year je lah. Hiks.. Dah tekad nak serious balik in dart, lama beno aku tinggalkan game tuh.. karat sudah skill..

Petang tuh hujan lebat tak terhingga. Teruslah cabut pegi Mines untuk shopping ape2 yang patut tapi tak beli pape pun. Cam takde mood plak nk shopping kat mines tuh. Malamnye gi Bangi lagi layan Performance Night. Seblom tuh belasah melantak sup tulang kat field. Serious best! TMF memang fav dia habis la tuh. Sampaikan naik mengah kena ngabihkan daging2. Haaa tu la sape soh amik banyak2.. huhu.. Tapi pape pun Performance memang best walaupun aku rase team yang menang tuh can perform better. Cam slow skit dia nye dance. Mungkin aku ter-expect something big and vass gitu! Tapi pape pun congrats lah! Bile taun plak aku nak bleh join menari nih? Mau patah tulang temulangku...

On Saturday, we had a date with my sister and family at OU. LAMA gila ye tak jumpe akak aku yang dah pindah duduk JB tuh. Kalah time dia dok Copenhagen dulu, lagi kerap jumpe. Kan kak? haha. Si kenit Sara dah besar dah. Makin cute gitu. Sahih la banyak peminat besar2 nih. huhu. Cakap bukan main petah.. Bingit nye masih tak dapat dicontrol.. Sian Uncle TMF terpekak jap time Sara mengamuk, exactly tepi telinga! huhu..

Dah petang skit tuh, we all decided to have dinner at Chili's, merangkap my birthday celebration jugak lah. Very early gitu. Sebabnye, nanti bila tiba tarikh keramat tuh, takdenye sayang2 aku nih disamping aku untuk celebrate my bday. So, Sabtu tuh aku anggap lah bday aku. Harinye dah sama, tarikh je lain.. Boleh la kannn.. Lepas membuncitkan perut dan merosakkan diet masing2, TMF ajak layan shopping. As for my birthday this year, dia cakap beli lah APE pun yang aku NAK! Wooww wweeeee~! Aku pun apa lagi kan. Naik juling bijik mata ha memilih itu ini. Tapi dengan sifat kewarasan aku, aku berjaya la mengurangkan budget shopping yang diberi tuh kepada HALF! Ha, baguskan aku nih.. Takdenye sampai hati nak kikis boyfriend sniri.. haha. Dah rasa bersalah dah tu pun ngabiskan duit dia. Hihi. Aku beli banyak gile dress and kasut. Konon nak cari baju keje, tapi end up ade 1 je.. Yang lelain tuh x sesuei ye pakai pegi keje.. huhu

Ari Ahad nye plak, bangun je terus pegi Mines lagi. Yela, TMF kan stay kat Mines so Mines je la hari2 tempat melepak. Layan Subway dulu pastu memborong roti Gardenia sampai cukup RM50! Haih, gile arr kalo duduk Miri. Takde Gardenia. So orang2 Miri kalo datang KL cukup la bawak balik Gardenia as souvenirs. Bleh gitu? Ni bukanla untuk TMF tapi untuk kwn dia kat Miri tuh. 3 plastic bag besar ye angkut roti. haha.

Pastu bermulalah episode air mata time nak nganto dia gi airport. Huhu. Menci okeh! Dah la lama lagi ni nak jumpe. Aku plak dah bersara naik turun rig nih.. Huwaa sedeynye! TMF plak patutnye bln 7 ni dah balik KL for good tapi kena extend pulak lagi 9 bulan!! Meroyan aku camni okeh.

Yang penting, dah extend tuh makin banyak la duit simpan. Harus aku dipamper cam princess ye! (eheh sayang, nih hint ye.. ;p) Okeh, penat ye dating 3 ari 3 malam nih. Eh 2 malam je kot. Malam ni aku keseorangan dah.. :( Balik umah je terus marathon mendobi. 3 kali dobi ye. Ni ade lagi 1 tp dah x larat dah. Esok je la sambung.. Pape pun weekend nih memang best!! Aku happy~~

Perlis

2009-06-28T19:54:00.003+08:00

Pada suatu petang, YM antara aku dan Cik Emi....

Harni Lai: ada lambang negeri
Harni Lai: xtau negeri apa
Harni Lai: perlis punya ka
Harni Lai: x igt seh
Harni Lai: haha

emmot: malas aku nak hina
emmot: jangan balik perlis boleh?
emmot: hahaha
emmot: jata negeri pon tak kenai

Harni Lai: siot
Harni Lai: hahaha
Harni Lai: jata tuh apo?

emmot: aku agak dah jata pon tatau
emmot: petron*s ni kena antaq p btn la
emmot: haha

Harni Lai: wakakakakakakaka

Aih teruk betul aku nih.. Lambang negeri sendiri pun kantoi.. Yela, slalu Perlis guna bendera biru kuning tuh ja... ni bentuk cam pelik plak.. kuikui.. Sampai arini pun x confirm jata tuh apa.. aku agak lambang kat bendera tuh ja la.. huhu...

Tapi tu la, best kah BTN? Tak penah pi pulak.. huhu

U.T.I

2009-06-23T21:19:00.003+08:00

stands for Urinary Tract Infection.

Last hitch requires me to day tripping to the platform and since I dont have a bedroom, that simply means I dont have a proper toilet to answer the nature calls. I tried to drink and eat less to avoid the needs to go to the toilet. But sometimes I just had to, luckily my colleague had a room and I had no choice but to use HIS bathroom. Better than the "slumdog" toilet, aite?

Anyway, after completed my learning on the platform, I went for another rig trip. Since I was on the platform earlier, I didnt bring any jeans and had to put on my coverall for work. You know how difficult and messy it is wearing a coverall. It takes longer time for me to do my "business". And sometimes I just ignored the call!

One day I woke up and felt the rush for pee but I ignored to enjoy few more minutes of good sleep. Then I went to the bathroom since my tank was already full. To my surprise, the amount of liquid was not that much and then I felt sharp pain towards the final drop. I was stunned. I remembered reading the blog of my friend's colleague who was having the same problem and later was diagnosed with ovarian cancer!

I tried to keep calm and continued my hot shower. I then consulted the medic onboard the rig and was informed of the possible UTI. He advised me to seek medical treatment and I was immediately sent back to shore for treatment.

Rushed to Miri as my other half was worried and would like to take me to the doctor himself. I then did the urine test and the result was.... I hold the urine too much! Hmmphh. There were traces of blood in the urine, eventhough I didnt see any blood but of course the test kit used turned bright green, indicating blood. There might be another factor as well, like the usage of public toilet. Remember I slept in the same room with another 3 guys? That explains.

It took me 5 days to fully recover and I never hold my urine anymore. But what if the public toilet is damn dirty? What should I do??

Bertapa

2009-06-21T13:40:00.003+08:00

After 3 weeks aku bertapa, akhirnya ku pulang jua ke tanah air..cewah..cam jauh sangat je pegi..

I feel great now. Everything is going as per plan, back on track. And I have few missions to accomplish, for this year...

Mission pertama haruslah menambahkan isi2 di sekitar tulang temulang aku nih. Ye, everytime naik rig haruslah turun berkilo-kilo ye.. Nasib baik ni last hitch.. No more extra money la pasnih.. *sigh*

Mission kedua haruslah tepuk dahi sendiri sebab gi cantas rambut sangat pendek.. Dah rindu rambut panjang pulak.. Pasni nak simpan rambut and nak curl.. Cantek kah?? Dulu penah buat skali tapi mak ai susah beno nak jaga rambut curl nih.. Tapi, takpe.. Try je. .Tak suka kalo kite kasi straight balik!

Mission ketiga, harus focus pada kerja. Aritu dah tunggang langgang kerja2 beta.. Now its time for me to come back! InsyaAllah by August aku start keja kat PMU balik. No more company biru berbintang merah. Sakit otak ye keja dengan mat saleh dan cha ya nun alip! Harap2 bapak beta takdelah se-pain in the ass cam seseorang tu... hehe..

Oklah, mari sambung makan Domino's. Lama dah nak ngap pizza nih. Tagline baru dia "terminate your hunger" sempena cite terminator tuh.. ceh.. nape tak transform jadik something else sempena transformer??

Ohhh tak sabarnye nak tengok transformer!! Harap2 dapat tengok dengan buah hati.. uhuuu..

Take care peeps.. Muaaahhhhhh

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Where Life Took Me

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bee-zee

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Mummy, I'm coming home!

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Are You a Muslim?

Lucky

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Ma Maison (rumah saya)

Facebook Limit

Satu petang...

Las Palmas de Gran Canaria

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Mauritanie

Bonjour

Dark and Twisted

My Volcanic Journal - London

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My Volcanic Journal - Aberdeen

Boredom...

Happenings

It's okay

Hyperprolactinemia

Double Celebration

So Long…

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2.0.1.0

When 2009 Waved at Me

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THE surgery

Telekung

Salon Spy

Fragile

Good

It's never too late

Lost

Sisters

PPSMI.. Yes? No? Dont know?

3rd death.. and we are still plain ignorant?

Glory-glory Malaysia

Sahabat, Kawan, Kenalan

Double Celebration

Body Composition

Retail Therapy

Gamba lagi

Pre-Birthday Celebration

Harni Safarina: Mak Su's pre-birthday celebration dinner...Terima kasih kpd tukang bayar. Lepas ni belanja lagi..hehehe

3 Hari 3 Malam

Perlis

U.T.I

Bertapa

Harni Safarina: Mak Su's pre-birthday celebration dinner...

Terima kasih kpd tukang bayar. Lepas ni belanja lagi..hehehe